My OperaOne chapter to be closed
Friday, May 26, 2006 8:47:01 AM
I am no better. My life is not perfect. Though, I honestly wish it is. I am a person driven by resentment. I know I should learn to forgive. But I would be a hypocrite to say that I am capable of forgetting. To forget equals to the word impossible. The past shouldn't be hindered. Yet, it shouldn't be taken forgranted. Few years had passed I made a "sad blog". It contains all the hurts and pains I had experienced. I wrote it when I was at the lowest point of my life. I spent nights writing and crying. Everytime I visit it, the sorrow and burden rekindle. Then days, weeks, and months I failed to update it. I never took a glimpse of it anymore. But a day had came that I reread all the entries. It refreshed the bitterness and hatred in my heart. That day I told my self that I have to delete all those posts. They are not significant. They made and make me a failure. But one voice said that I should keep it. I need it. That blog defines me. And yes, I was too stupid to listen. It was a blog made of craps. But I felt like it was a treasure. I cannot bear the idea that all of what I have written will be forgotten. As if a part of me opposes. Even now, I still haven't deleted it. But after this, I promise, I will.
The experiences and inferiorities that I have went through are not wasted. They had already made me into a wonderful individual. They strenghten my heart. And now is the time to close that blog. Because it only burns my heart, mind and soul. The events in my yesterday can never fade. They will never be out of the storehouse of my brain. They are eternally stuck there. But they are no longer ghosts that haunt me. They will be memories that make me a beaufitul person. It's time to forgive. It's time to stop the evil flame from burning. Now is the moment to smile and welcome another hope.
Life is not stagnant. And I will live my life happily even if circumstances are not good or people are not kind.
Thank you Lord.
