Friday, 18. July 2008, 10:07:49
Wow! I have been slack! So much has happened in the past few months. I have been updating on my website:
www.leswan.com, So if you want to find out what's been going on, check it out!
Recently things have been going great! I am still very much in love with my bf - Even more so these days. I am so happy!!! I have a new job which is a long term perm role. The people are great and I love it!
What more can I say!
I'll be updating properly real soon!
FB xx
Thursday, 1. May 2008, 15:59:14
The lack of updating has been because I have had a little holiday. It was a holiday that almost never happened though!
As I walked home from work on Thursday night, whilst talking to one of my old friends from Northern Ireland, my other friend S jumped up and down infront of me. I should have seen the signs that she was pissed!!! She asked me to come in for a drink, which I dad and as it was free drinks, she lined them up... all 3 of them! Well yes, as you can now imagine I was a little tipsy and SHE was steaming! I eventually went home not long after she attempted to snog me (as she was so drunk).
I woke up at 4.10 in good time to get packed and get my flight. But this didn't happen. I had problems checking in online as it wouldn't print my boarding pass, so I went on my way thinking I have an hour and a half to get there before check in closes anyway, but they should still have my details on the system. It was one thing after another from then onwards. I JUST missed the train to Stanstead... But that wasn't the end of it. The so called 40 minute train took over an hour leaving me 30 minutes. Check in had closed, they couldn't find my check in details and rufused to let me on the plane!!! I was distraught! More than distraught! I cried my eyes out. They told me to go to the Ticket Sales desk, which I did. They proceeded to tell me that it would cost me an additional £187.00 to fly to Belfast. I was outraged!!! I cried and cried! With my lack of money at the moment (I am still temping) it was heart wrenching. nobody from Ryan Air wanted to help me - I was at my wits end! Eventually after being calmed down by my bf and Dad, they both offered to pay (which I didn't take them up on) but I just walked over to EastJet and bought a ticket for £98.00. Job done and I was on my way!!!
I was met at the station by my childhood best friend E. E was still as tiny as ever. i couldn't be more happy to see anyone in my entire life! I love that girl. Her bf was with her. He was a really ncie guy. I thought they were great together! Anyway, we had a lil drive about where I used to live. It was all scarily the same except a few shops. My house had been knocked down years ago and 8 houses built on our land. It was very tearful seeing that. But E's place was the same and it felt so right to be back there!
To be continued....
Tuesday, 8. April 2008, 22:07:34
Le Swan Dot Com Not that I won't be blogging here - Just a personal project.
FB xx
Friday, 29. February 2008, 12:08:08
financial, temp work, redundancy, temping
I know I have not written much lately, but it has been a funny time for me. I got made redundant last week and not really been open enough to write much about it. It did come as a shock. It wouldn't have done if it had happened 4 weeks earlier.. They are paying me until the end of March, so that's not too bad! But it has made me wonder what I really want to do and where I really want to be in 5 years time.
I am temping today. This is my first ever temp role. I am on reception for a financial company. It's nice and the people are lovely here. But it's only for a day. I might have some more temp work on Monday. Working at a school. So that would be good!
Ahhhh I don't really know what to say as I am a little blank and have been for a week now. I am starving. Looking forward to lunch!!!
FB xx
London Bingo
Thursday, 14. February 2008, 12:29:08
diamond, wine, earrings, valentines Day
I am not getting anywhere with my brother. This time my Dad is now standing up for him. Hopeless! Annoying! Upsetting! Just 3 words that describe the situation. Anyway, I give up now. I am not trying anymore. They can miss me! Because I don't feel like making the effort anymore!
It's Valentines Day today. My bf and I exchanged our presents this morning. I got him a wine tasting experience which includes 5 wine tasters, 1 perfectly made Bombay Saphire, 2 whiskey tastings, 2 absinthe tastings and 2 beer tastings. So needless to say, we may be a little sloshed after it! he he! He bought me a beautiful pair for diamond earrings. I love them! I am so happy and soooo inlove with him *blush*.
I have just had to sit though a 2 hour meeting this morning. The good thing about that though is it's almost lunch time. I can't wait to see my beau. I won't be seeing him tonight as he'll be out, but I am going out tomorrow instead to a lovely little Jazz Club in the West. It will be a lovely night I am sure. The wine tasting is on Sunday too, so it's should be uber special!
Anyway... Lots to do Ciao for now!
FB xx
London Bingo
Wednesday, 13. February 2008, 12:06:04
I'm feeling really down at the moment. I feel like my brother and I are really losing touch and that he doesn't care anymore :-( Nobody really seems to understand, not even my Dad. Which puts me in a real predicament. I really am not so sure who to turn to. My bf certainly doesn't understand, normally my Dad has an answer for everything, but even he hasn't this time :-( I know he feels bad about things, I can't be upbeat about things. I am trying though as I don't like being negative!
I feel like the beginning of this year has been almost perfect. But nothing is perfect and that is the problem. 'Almost' is as good as it gets and for anything to be at that level in my life is pretty good. I think I am gonna stop moaping around now - No point in being so negative! It's not so bad!
It's Valentines Day tomorrow. I am so excited! I need to think of a quirky idea to put his event vouchers into. I am not too sure what to do. Maybe in an empty wine bottle. Maybe I could get him a new lil wallet thingy and put it in there. I am not too sure. Hmmmmmm... something to think about on this boring day at work!!!
FB xx
London Bingo
Monday, 11. February 2008, 16:21:46
dr joel, valentines, kula shaker
It was a pretty mixed week for me last week. I was a little easily aggitated and feeling sorry for myself for being broke. Work was okay until Friday when I got a pretty unneccessary email from accounts that made my blood boil. It wasn't really what was said within the email, but just the fact that my boss and MD had been CCed into it. I wouldn't mind if they were points that had been brought up before, but they weren't. I do not want anyone thinking that I am incompetent when I know I am perfectly able to do my job to a good standard!
My weekend was quite nice though. On Friday I saw my lovely Debi for another Kula Shaker gig. I didn't have the same excitement as before as I have met the band after every show so far, including Rome in Italy. They seem totally uninterested and just think that anyone who wants to meet them or follows them are freaks. I am not a freak thank you very much. I just happen to be someone who enjoys their music and their shows. Jeez, they're not exactly all that and a bag of chips. (hee hee). Anyway, the performance was great as always and there was an added bonus of them also being the support group. They got dressed up in crazy folklore costumes and sang some songs along with Dr Joel, who is becoming a bit of a celeb with them now. Dr Joel is great. His music is very hard to describe. He sings in a syle of music called Konnakol. My favourite song has to be Ravenous like a Tiger!
Saturday was a fairly busy one. I moved a few bags from my house to my Dad's to store and then saw my cousins baby. Kymani he's called. Gorgeous lil thing. Weighed a whopping 8 pounds 9. They all look really happy. I wish I had more time to spend with them. Unfortunately we only booked out the car till 4.30 so I could only really make it for half an hour or so! Once we got the car back, we went to watch the film 'Cloverfield'. It was like 'War of the Worlds' meets 'The Blair Witch Project'. It was enjoyable, but I don't think I would go back and watch it again any time soon! I am really looking forwrad to seeing Juno this week though. Looks good. A real chick flick though, but Grazi and I are gonna drag the boys along!
And finally, who can forget the fact that it's the Week for Lovers everywhere. Yep, Valentines day is on Thursday and I am most excited. Although I will not see my bf on that evening, we're going out on the 15th to a nice little Jazz Club in West London. I am really looking forward to giving him his present as I really think he's gonna like it! YAY!!! The card also came over the weekend. I am really pleased with it. Althought the photo on the inside page is a little pixilated it doesn't matter too much really. I think he'll still like it. I wrote him a poem too... Awww I can't wait.
Time to get on now - enough rubbish from me. Lets hope this will be a great week!
FB xx
London Bingo
Wednesday, 30. January 2008, 12:56:52
It's been a funny old week. Lots of different things happening. Met up with all of my good friends. Caught up on their news as well as telling them all about my holiday. Reflection on last year really has made me realise who my real friends are. So despite 2007 being an awful year overall, it really did have some hidden gems!
Yesterday was a bit of a bummer day though. My bf told me he has a work dinner he can't get out of on Valentines Day! I got a little tearful. But thinking about it, it's better to just chill on that night and not get ripped off! It's not so bad! He's taking me out the following day so that will be nice. I have got his present already. I can't wait to give it to him. I think he's gonna love it!!! Yay!
I have finally decided to move in with Jon, he asked me at the weekend and this time I said yes. It makes sense really! Although I do have
some doubts> not many and they are tiny, but it has to be said. I really want this to work though, I really feel like I finally deserve a little happiness and things to go MY way for once!
Anyway - I had better get on with some work!
FB xx
London Bingo
Wednesday, 23. January 2008, 13:30:24
Well, it's been a great start to the year for me. New years eve was especially good followed by an amazing holiday in Brazil! Now that I am back, I feel happier than ever
So what now? Well I have been thinking a lot recently and I need to outline some goals. So what should they be? Here are my inital thoughts.
I feel like there should be an over all goal and this one is very clear to me:-
1. To find a permenant base.
As some of you may know, I have been flitting between my flat, my bf's flat and at times my friends flat. It's not a nice feeling at all to not have somewhere to call home. Right now I spend all 7 days at my bf's but I still officially have my flat no so far away, which is a real waste of money!!! £520 for nothing per month. I dohave high hopes this year with regards to my relationship, so I am hoping we can finally move in together. Fingers crossed!!!
So for my other goals here are a few:
2. To excel and do my best at work.
3. To join a gym or class of some sort and get fit.
4. To go to a festival
Leeds Here I come!
5. To take up my love of blogging regularly at My Opera once again!
So there are a few - I am sure I will think of more and when I do I will be posting them on here!
Ciao for now!
FB xx
Wednesday, 2. January 2008, 09:04:54
Happy New year to everyone here on Opera. May 2008 bring you much happiness and prosperity.
Leila xx
Friday, 21. December 2007, 09:36:45
Well it's my last day at work before Xmas. I won't be back until the 2nd. I'm a little nervous about leaving anything undone as I am off to Brazil in the New Year so will only have the 3 days back to sort any potential problems out. Should be fine though I hope! *crosses fingers*
Well nothing major to report other than I was embarrassingly drunk at my work xmas do on Wednesday. It was good though, so I can't complain too much. Felt awful for it yesterday! In the evening, I just went home and did absolutely nothing... NADA!!! Feeling a little tired this morning, but the fact it's my last few hours of work is spurring me along nicely
So finally, I may not update this again before Xmas, so Merry Xmas to one and all and wishing you all a Happy and prosperous New Year!!!
xx
Friday, 7. December 2007, 11:44:55
Finally it’s almost time for my 1st week of the year off!!! And guess what?!?! I’m coming down with a cold/ flu.
How crap is that?!?! I’m a little annoyed. The weather is totally weird at the moment and almost seems to be changing as much as my mood!!!
Anyway - On the boyfriend front, things appear to be levelling out now as far as his mood goes. Things are still not great in my eyes, but as long as they’re not spirallying downhill, I think I’ll live. I do sometimes think, what would happen if I just break free from it all - You knw, get a new life and be single etc… Truth is, I really have my heart set on being with him and knowing he’s not feeling like I am kinda hurts at times. I don’t really know what the answer is though - I am a fool when it comes to love it seems.
I watched the Mighty Boosh last night, It was GREAT
I do love Noel Fielding ha ha - Who can’t love him? He’s great. I am really looking forward to getting the new series on DVD, but I don’t think it’s going to be out for a little while. Hopefully by my Birthday though. I am still to watch the live show all the way through though - Must do that next week when I am off.
Anyway, TONS of work to finish before I head off for my week of relaxation!!!
xx
Thursday, 6. December 2007, 09:58:56
Things have improved finally. He's back to normal. He has his work do tonight. I am just going to take it easy round his I think. I am so broke right now
It's so annoying with it being Xmas and all that. I get paid on the 21st though so that's not too bad, except that I have a hen night to go to and I now can't afford it. Looks like I am going to be uber sober :-( Dammit!
I am really looking forward to the weekend now. I really need to think about what I want to do. I was thinking about becoming a tourist in my own City for the weekend, but it looks like the weather is going to be pretty awful so I might just take it really easy. Then next week, I can try and catch up with some of my friends for lunch. On Thursday I am going to the 'Him' concert with my brother :-) I am gonna spend the whole day with him - I can't wait! Yay!!!
Anyway, I have a day full of work :-( So better get on.
xx
Wednesday, 5. December 2007, 12:19:35
A small improvment today, nothing major though. He’s still not being very nice to me. Everything he says is so matter of fact. Like I am a nobody. It’s a little frustrating. Last night I thought everything was fine, but when he got up this morning, it was back to being blunt and blah. He’s not saying anything nasty or horrible, it’s just not very friendly. Very non emotional if you know what I mean!
It’s really starting to get me down. I am going to go to my parents tonight. i know that will cheer me up. I emailed him telling him I was doing this and that I thought he wasn’t being very nice and that it’s not making me feel great. He’s not replied just yet though.
We went out last night to see my friend Jeanette. We had a great time. My bf came too, he seemed fine and happy as Larry until this morning. I got a little tipsy, but that would have been down to having no food! It really was a great laugh though and I hope we can all meet again soon.
Anyway - I’m feeling shitty and I am sick of the depressing updates, hopefully I will be in a better mood soon!
xx
Tuesday, 4. December 2007, 11:03:15
One thing that I didn’t mention yesterday was that the reason for my upset is that my bf and I had an argument, pretty much because he won’t listen. Yesterday wasn’t great. He didn’t want to be around me, I should have made myself scarce really… But I just wanted to be there with him for some dumb reason, in the hope that he would come round sooner or later. As we’ve been together over 4 years, I should really know that he was never gonna come round and by leaving him to it that it would have been better and might have solved things quicker.
I am scared he is going to go back to making little lies about where and who he is with again. Certain events are worrying me. I won’t say too much on the matter as I am probably being paranoid, but I really just can’t help it. It’s what happened before. His moods and the way he used to treat me is all coming back now and is a far cry from the promises he made when we got back together.
Like I have said, I am really happy on a whole with him, that’s not the problem. We have great times together, but I think I am in too deep again and I am finding it hard to cope with someone who won’t show me some kind of commitment after so long. If only there was a way to tell or show him that if he gave me a chance he would see such an amazing side of me. I am only moody and not myself because I can’t be myself so long as I have no base and don’t know where I stand long term with him.
It’s hard work not having a home to really call my own. Somewhere I go back to every night. Somewhere that’s relaxing and mine!!! I have been like this for a long time now and I am not sure I want to be like it for much longer. I am 25 nearly 26 - I should have my own place, my own independence.
I’ll give it another 6months to a year, see what happens. I love him so much :-(
Monday, 3. December 2007, 11:03:36
Not feeling the best at the moment. BF probs once again. When are they going to end. I think I start them most of the time though because I have issues which I am too scared to vent. Too scared that they might backfire even though they are not that bad and are only natural in humans.
My biggest issue that I have is that I want to live with my boyfriend. Once and for all, mono v mono. Me and him. No one else. I KNOW that if this happened that most of my insecurities would just disappear in a puff of smoke. A small commitment, that’s all I want. I don’t necessarily want to get married or have kids or anything like that. I just want to BE with him. Is that so much to ask considering I stay there 6/7 days a week already! Why make me pay for rent elsewhere of £518 when I am never there
He knows how much it cripples me financially too! I am too scared to bring up the subject with him in case he thinks I am trying to tie him down or something, which I am not. I mean, we have been together over 4 years!
I feel so inadequate and insecure. Why doesn’t he want to take that step to be with me and love me? Is there something more that I don’t know about? Does he fear commitment? Will I ever be happy with him? I mean, I am happy on a whole with him. I enjoy being with him and everything, but will I ever hit that next level and I long for it so very much.
Another issue bugging me is how insincere most people are, how they pretend to be your friend, Let you down when you need them, take advantage and just generally screw you over! And on top of that, friends who get boyfriends - They drop you like a lead balloon. I may have done it in the past, but I learnt from my mistakes. I lost friends because of it. And now, my friends are very important to me and I make as much time as possible for them. I guess I am just on the receiving end of my old actions and should just deal with it, but saying that, MY so called friends didn’t! They just told me what a shit friend I was and left me to it!
I really hate my life sometimes. Why can’t someone just WANT me?
:-(
Tuesday, 20. November 2007, 09:11:17
So, I seem to repel people it would seem… God, all my friends seem to have or getting boyfriends, then I never see them! What the fuck is that all about? I have a boyfriend, but I still make time for my friends. It’s all starting to get me down now. I feel like I’m alone!
Well, I have the weekend to myself as it’s my bf’s brothers Stag do. Wanted to meet friends, but no one has time. I am going to see my friend Jeanette on Saturday Avo, then gonna chill for the rest of it and Sunday! I really don’t see the point in arranging something and being disappointed!
Maybe I’ll go out with my flatmate or invite him out for a movie or something. That would be lovely. He could always come and keep me company in my friends flat that I am looking after. I could bring my Wii over… hmmmm… Not such a bad idea!!!
Wednesday, 14. November 2007, 12:47:36
I would really like to try and get this blog up and runnning again! I really just don't feel able to right now though. I have lost interest a little and have been updating somewhere else for a bit. I do have my Tattva blog here as well, but it all becomes confusing.
*sigh*
Wednesday, 12. September 2007, 08:53:08
charity, run, prostate Cancer
Hi Guys
My friend Debi and I took part in a charity run for Prostate Cancer called 'PANTS IN THE PARK' this weekend (some of you may remember I did it last year with my family - here is the post -
Post 1, and we would like to raise as much as possible for this worthy cause.
You can visit our fundraising page here:
http://www.justgiving.com/leilatrons_autobots Please could you donate what you can.
Many Thanks in advance.
--
Leila & Debi xx
Here are some pics:
Thursday, 16. August 2007, 12:23:25
So the week has been a good one! I went to see the mighty Kula Shaker on monday night! Probably one of the best nights of my life!!! Meeting them all for the fourth time and they were on TOP form. Both myself and my friend Debi somehow found ourselves in the dressing room chatting to Crispian and Don Pecker. It was all a little crazy... Then the guitarist from Mono Taxi (The other group that performed) came in and I was chatting away to him. It was very strange to be in the dressing room and eating their fruit! ha ha!
The pics are fab, I must upload some here as it really was just an amazing evening. Anyone who doesn't know who Kula Shaker arem REALLY gotta check them out at THEIR
OFFICIAL WEBSITE. Their music has truly inspired me. it gives me an amazing uplifting feeling and one of great joy.
I have met some wonderful people through my Kula travels... My best friend Debi. Now she really is a great girl, but once we met we realised we had so much more in common than just KS. Having only known eachoter for about 6-8 months, we have become great friends and it's all down to King Kula Shaker! Then there is my friend Sarah. She is a big fan and also knows the wife of the bassist Alonza. She came with Debs and I on Monday. Then there are a couple of others that I haven't met yet (well one I did briefly at the Hoxton gig) whom I spea to on a regular basis!
I have set up a facebook fanclub for KS which I really need to put some work into. God I am so excited. This mail probably makes no sense at all! ha ha!
Oh well! All you guys gotta know is that I love Kula Shaker and that you sould too!!! Hee hee!
Ciao
FB xx
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