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October 2009

( Monthly archive )

Insecurities

Wednesday, 28. October 2009, 09:52:06

So I sill have small insecurities from the days of Jon. This week has proved to be a really touch one for me. My boy is so amazing (yes like *really* amazing) and I have treated him poorly. It's funny, because he reacts how I always wanted Jon to react. He's loving, caring and supportive, but I find it *so* hard to deal with that. If he'd have shouted at me, kicked me out, I possibly would have been able to deal with things a little better. Adapting to a different relationship can be hard, even if they treat you as you have always wanted to be treated.

We have sorted things now. None of it was his fault. He's always been honest with me... ALWAYS. Why I doubted him, who knows? I am ashamed of myself for getting upset and thinking things though.I need to keep telling myself that I'm now in a very loving relationship with someone who wants to be with me always. Believe it or not, that is hard... I am finding it so hard!

One thing's for sure, I won't let my boy go, he's *the* best thing that ever happened to me by a long shot. Without him, I'm not sure where I'd be. Lost probably!

*sigh*

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Quick update

Monday, 26. October 2009, 09:47:12

OK Guys... So it really has been a long while! You may remember that I was with Jon for aaaages! This came to an end as you may have read, after 5 and a half years! Ther weight lifted off my shoulders was amazing. It wasn't going anywhere and the breakup was amicable in the end. Although when dealing with shit that you have to after so long, he was so childish about the whole thing which hurt and made me feel really small.

Not long after the break up, I got together with *the* most amazing person I have ever met - Bob. Totally the opposite to Jon. Bob loves me, cares for me, makes me laugh, supports me... everything! He's perfection in a person. My life has changed drastically. We moved in together after 4 months and things are going great! We have been together 7 and a half months now and everyday of that time, I have been the happiest girl alive

My confidence is slowly but surely returning thanks to Bob, although it's only recently I realised how affected I was by my relationship with Jon. I still have a very long way to go. The fact I now have a boy that prepared to go through and see this through with me is amazing and I feel so amazingly lucky!

So other things to update you on other than the love life. I have a tech website aimed at women at http://www.girlsngadgets.com - It's going well and I have just recently relaunched. Finding time is hard at the moment though as I have so much going on personally. But I am generally happy with how things are going

So there we have it - What about an update on you guys?!

Missed you lots

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Persuasion...

Wednesday, 21. October 2009, 15:31:18

Back

I was really pleased when i checked my last blog post that a lot of my nearest and dearest are still here

So I will be updating as often as possible! It may be short posts with a rundown of my daily thoughts... But that's always what this blog has been about. Being honest and having fun.

Thanks to all of those people that commented and said that I should come back! I am a very happy girl today

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