Living and Loving

A small improvment today, nothing major though. He’s still not being very nice to me. Everything he says is so matter of fact. Like I am a nobody. It’s a little frustrating. Last night I thought everything was fine, but when he got up this morning, it was back to being blunt and blah. He’s not saying anything nasty or horrible, it’s just not very friendly. Very non emotional if you know what I mean!

It’s really starting to get me down. I am going to go to my parents tonight. i know that will cheer me up. I emailed him telling him I was doing this and that I thought he wasn’t being very nice and that it’s not making me feel great. He’s not replied just yet though.

We went out last night to see my friend Jeanette. We had a great time. My bf came too, he seemed fine and happy as Larry until this morning. I got a little tipsy, but that would have been down to having no food! It really was a great laugh though and I hope we can all meet again soon.

Anyway - I’m feeling shitty and I am sick of the depressing updates, hopefully I will be in a better mood soon!

xx