Living and Loving

So I sill have small insecurities from the days of Jon. This week has proved to be a really touch one for me. My boy is so amazing (yes like *really* amazing) and I have treated him poorly. It's funny, because he reacts how I always wanted Jon to react. He's loving, caring and supportive, but I find it *so* hard to deal with that. If he'd have shouted at me, kicked me out, I possibly would have been able to deal with things a little better. Adapting to a different relationship can be hard, even if they treat you as you have always wanted to be treated.

We have sorted things now. None of it was his fault. He's always been honest with me... ALWAYS. Why I doubted him, who knows? I am ashamed of myself for getting upset and thinking things though.I need to keep telling myself that I'm now in a very loving relationship with someone who wants to be with me always. Believe it or not, that is hard... I am finding it so hard!

One thing's for sure, I won't let my boy go, he's *the* best thing that ever happened to me by a long shot. Without him, I'm not sure where I'd be. Lost probably!

*sigh*

FB xx