My OperaFalling
Wednesday, January 25, 2006 10:49:53 PM
Shit!!! I have fallen for Jon again! Oh - why do I allow myself to be so weak! 
I don't feel that at this stage that it's a bad thing, but it really worries me that if we argue, I will be so vunerable and weak - It's just the way I get!
*sigh*
I love him so much. I am not with him tonight and he just called me and told me that he has a party in St. Albans on Saturday night and I am just so gutted I could cry. In all honesty, when the day comes round, I will be fine and will probably spend time with my Dad and Brother, but right now... well... I am just so disappointed. I am not seeing him tomorrow either. Again, I am seeing my Dad and brother. Absence makes the heart grow fonder I guess...
I guess I am so hooked up on the fact that Jon hasn't told me that he loves me... I know it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I can honestly say - I love him :S If he had have told me, then I guess that I would be more confident. But I'm not.
I have some good news though... My new job is going really well... I think they are happy with me and I am happy with them. it's nice to have a car again and to be so much better off
Hope you are all well my good friends.
Don't worry, my inspiration will come back soon... I just feel a little down right now and tired.
FB xx
I don't feel that at this stage that it's a bad thing, but it really worries me that if we argue, I will be so vunerable and weak - It's just the way I get!*sigh*
I love him so much. I am not with him tonight and he just called me and told me that he has a party in St. Albans on Saturday night and I am just so gutted I could cry. In all honesty, when the day comes round, I will be fine and will probably spend time with my Dad and Brother, but right now... well... I am just so disappointed. I am not seeing him tomorrow either. Again, I am seeing my Dad and brother. Absence makes the heart grow fonder I guess...
I guess I am so hooked up on the fact that Jon hasn't told me that he loves me... I know it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I can honestly say - I love him :S If he had have told me, then I guess that I would be more confident. But I'm not.
I have some good news though... My new job is going really well... I think they are happy with me and I am happy with them. it's nice to have a car again and to be so much better off
Hope you are all well my good friends.
Don't worry, my inspiration will come back soon... I just feel a little down right now and tired.
FB xx
