My OperaUnexpected update to yesterday's updates...
Thursday, October 27, 2005 8:07:18 AM
Okay - Here it is - I am officially a FOOL 
As Pete was off work ill, I called him and said "I'll come over to yours and make you food as you have to eat!!!"
Can a girl get more stupid than that, especially when she thinks there is something more to it? Anyway, the story goes like this...
After work, I walked to the bus as quickly as I could. I had to go to the supermarket to pick up to food (mistake no 1... always pating for my good turns!). I get a phone call from his flatmate asking me to get her some Nurofen from Tesco, I say yes (mistake no 2... MUG). Then I get to his and I am greeted by a kiss... Nice but didn't feel sincere. I get changed and go straight to the kitchen (mistake no 3... take your time and THEN do things). I begin to chop the corgette and the red pepper whilst talking to his flatmate Gav... Pete comes into the kitchen and they start speaking. Gav mentions that it took Pete and hour and a half for his to explain what happened in Eastenders (I at this point an raging inside as he was apparently in bed from 7pm straight through to the morning!). Pete stays silent and from the corner of my eye I can see him eyeballing Gav as if to say that "You so shouldn't have said that!". He turns to me and says... "You okay babe?", I reply "fine" (still raging like you wouldn't believe!). He then goes to kiss me - I 'peck' him back! He then says, "You seem like you are in a mood" I reply, "Not at all". The anger and hurt then takes over and I go to his room and have a cigarette, tears pouring from my eyes... My big mistake being I believed him! What a FOOL!!!
He comes in, says whats up, I tell him, his response "Fuck Off!!!" I cry more... He hugs me... He leaves the room to finish the dinner... I go out and do it instead... We sit back in his room whilst eating, he plays playstation, I watch TV... He tries to suck up to me...Nothing at this point will work. I ask to put on a DVD, we do so, he turns to go to sleep and I tell him to turn it off... We have a terrible attempt of make up sex (people in the lounge, so no go!)... He turns over and falls asleep and I turn over and cry myself to sleep...
It's a Jon thing all over again... but this time it looks like it's been taken to the next level!
I am seeing my parents tonight - There is a lot of thinking to be done! I am not sure I want to go in this direction once again! I love him, but I will not do this to myself, I must be stronger!!!
As Pete was off work ill, I called him and said "I'll come over to yours and make you food as you have to eat!!!"Can a girl get more stupid than that, especially when she thinks there is something more to it? Anyway, the story goes like this...
After work, I walked to the bus as quickly as I could. I had to go to the supermarket to pick up to food (mistake no 1... always pating for my good turns!). I get a phone call from his flatmate asking me to get her some Nurofen from Tesco, I say yes (mistake no 2... MUG). Then I get to his and I am greeted by a kiss... Nice but didn't feel sincere. I get changed and go straight to the kitchen (mistake no 3... take your time and THEN do things). I begin to chop the corgette and the red pepper whilst talking to his flatmate Gav... Pete comes into the kitchen and they start speaking. Gav mentions that it took Pete and hour and a half for his to explain what happened in Eastenders (I at this point an raging inside as he was apparently in bed from 7pm straight through to the morning!). Pete stays silent and from the corner of my eye I can see him eyeballing Gav as if to say that "You so shouldn't have said that!". He turns to me and says... "You okay babe?", I reply "fine" (still raging like you wouldn't believe!). He then goes to kiss me - I 'peck' him back! He then says, "You seem like you are in a mood" I reply, "Not at all". The anger and hurt then takes over and I go to his room and have a cigarette, tears pouring from my eyes... My big mistake being I believed him! What a FOOL!!!
He comes in, says whats up, I tell him, his response "Fuck Off!!!" I cry more... He hugs me... He leaves the room to finish the dinner... I go out and do it instead... We sit back in his room whilst eating, he plays playstation, I watch TV... He tries to suck up to me...Nothing at this point will work. I ask to put on a DVD, we do so, he turns to go to sleep and I tell him to turn it off... We have a terrible attempt of make up sex (people in the lounge, so no go!)... He turns over and falls asleep and I turn over and cry myself to sleep...
It's a Jon thing all over again... but this time it looks like it's been taken to the next level!
I am seeing my parents tonight - There is a lot of thinking to be done! I am not sure I want to go in this direction once again! I love him, but I will not do this to myself, I must be stronger!!!
