My OperaA little bit of savvy...
Thursday, December 15, 2005 9:14:05 AM
NO update yesterday... Opera was down!!! :-( I even emailed the to ask what was happening! They posted a note saying that it was scheduled maintenance and thatit would be completed in 15 minutes... 3 hours later............
Anyway - It's up today which is the good thing!
Yesterday wasn't ther greatest day! I had yet another 'screaming' match with Pete on messenger. It really isn't nice when I am at work and I am having to deal with that. He's made me realise though that he is REALLY instable - more so than I have EVER been and I have been at some lows, I'll tell you! It's made it harder to prise myself away from him, he was talking about how he took an overdose once and how he suffers from panic attacks when he gets wound up real bad! I shouldn't have to deal with this! I have done nothing wrong! It's emotional blackmail, but what he doesn't realise is that he is pushing me away by saying these things
I love him, I do. But he is not the one for me! I know this. I can't help that I have fallen for him, but I can at least contol my happiness! I wasn't that happy with him, he let me down so often - I can't live like that. On top of that, the guy just seems so immatire. He is always sick and off work and if he is there then he's late all the time! I keep telling him he can't go on like that or he'll lose his job! He normally hangs up on me for that! (Another childish point!) I can't be with someone that I don't know is going to have a job from one day to the next. I don't get much money, so I can't support us both like I have been doing for the past 4 months... I am in major debt because of it now!
I need somone who can stand up and call themselves a man. Someone who respects a woman and knows how to treat her. Someone with a bit of savvy...
Off the subject of men, work is not much better! I did a covering letter and updated my CV to send to my flatmates work last night! I am going to email it today, so fingers crossed! I HAVE to get out of this place! It dragging me down, it really is.
Anyway... working so can't update in too much detail...
Ciao my lovely ones...
FB xx
Anyway - It's up today which is the good thing!
Yesterday wasn't ther greatest day! I had yet another 'screaming' match with Pete on messenger. It really isn't nice when I am at work and I am having to deal with that. He's made me realise though that he is REALLY instable - more so than I have EVER been and I have been at some lows, I'll tell you! It's made it harder to prise myself away from him, he was talking about how he took an overdose once and how he suffers from panic attacks when he gets wound up real bad! I shouldn't have to deal with this! I have done nothing wrong! It's emotional blackmail, but what he doesn't realise is that he is pushing me away by saying these things
I love him, I do. But he is not the one for me! I know this. I can't help that I have fallen for him, but I can at least contol my happiness! I wasn't that happy with him, he let me down so often - I can't live like that. On top of that, the guy just seems so immatire. He is always sick and off work and if he is there then he's late all the time! I keep telling him he can't go on like that or he'll lose his job! He normally hangs up on me for that! (Another childish point!) I can't be with someone that I don't know is going to have a job from one day to the next. I don't get much money, so I can't support us both like I have been doing for the past 4 months... I am in major debt because of it now!
I need somone who can stand up and call themselves a man. Someone who respects a woman and knows how to treat her. Someone with a bit of savvy...
Off the subject of men, work is not much better! I did a covering letter and updated my CV to send to my flatmates work last night! I am going to email it today, so fingers crossed! I HAVE to get out of this place! It dragging me down, it really is.
Anyway... working so can't update in too much detail...
Ciao my lovely ones...
FB xx
