Living and Loving

Well, I am about to set off for my second day as a barmaid. I had a great day yesterday as I said, but today, I just don't feel as happy. This would be because I was just speaking to Jon. He sounds so uniterested on the phone... I shouldn't have called him to be honest. I havn't text him all weekend, he's text me goodnight and stuff, but I can't seem to make him want me like Pete wants me. I guess maybe it has to do with the fact that he does actually HAVE me. Oh I don't know. I know that I have gotten over all the 'stressing' out I used to do. In fact, when he goes out now, I just don't care at all - Is that healthy. I do miss him however!

He just seems so 'I couldn't care less' about everything. Oh, I am never gonna get back the kind of relationship with Jon that I used to have. I am too scared to ask to see him more often in case he tells me that it's not what he wants for a while yet! :S I am sure everything will work out fine and that I am just over-reacting. But I think this is the start of me falling for him again... Hopefully not too fast though. lol!

*sigh* I have someone who would practically die for me and I have Jon... lol! I wonder how he is really feeling. I wonder if I come into his thoughts much or has he just asked me back because he had no one for so long? I really have no clue! It baffles me and he's not very open about his feelings towards me!

Never mind though... :|

Speak to you all very soon...

FB x:(x