Living and Loving

Well... I have to say, yesterday was mind numbingly boring. The phone didn't ring and there wasn't much to do online. Everyone was sitting playing games, but I just couldn't bring myself to do that! I just played on opera and signed up for my new hosting package. They ripped me off too... It said that when you sign up for a hosting package, you get a free domain - So I put in the domain that I wanted and they charged me for it. Because I signed up for the 3 month trial and not the full package yet. Lucky it was only a .co.uk and it was £10 - But that's a lot to spend on a .co.uk as I normally only spend £6 So I am not happy. They didn't even prompt me to say, "confirm the amount". Pretty bad huh!

Anyway, it's done now! I just gotta argue it out with them!

So...

Pete came round last night to give me more of my stuff... I swear he's just hoarding it just so that he can make an excuse to see me! It wasn't that bad though - I had to give him a bit of a pep talk though. He is very insecure and he's had people put him down all his life. No one has ever believed in him other than his grand parents and they're now in heaven. I believe in him, I really really do. He can do so much better for himself, I know he can. I told him that. There were some tears but all in all it was fine. He left happier than when he came and I felt that I had instilled some kind of good feeling to him! He IS a great guy, he just needs to believe in himself more.

I have never been so excited to call Jon in my life. I was missing him... It's crazy, I think I am starting to love him now. I am not IN love, like I have said before, but the happy, gewy feeling is there now! Time will tell When I spoke to him, his voice soothed me, it made me want to be there with him! It made me want to kiss and cuddle him and fall asleep in his arms... :S I love doing that.

See there are some things which I love Jon for more than anything...

I love it when he strokes my hair
I love it when he snuggles in tight
I love it when he holds my hand
I love it when he kisses my head
I love it when he holds me close when I am sad
I love it when he makes his silly face at me
I love it when he puts his hand on my leg
I love it when I wake up and he's looking at me lovingly...

There is so much... All these things I forgot about, feel 100 times better now!!!

*sigh* I am happy...