FB xx

Insecurities and idiocy!

Friday, 10. August 2007, 10:16:58

I am feeling like a bit of an idiot today. For some reason, I didn't want Jon to go out last night with his friend. There was no reason and no call for it really. I guess I was just feeling a little insecure and moody. His phone died and I though he had hung up on me, so I was upset for ages and cried! Soooo stupid as he turned up at mine bang on time as he'd promised, even though we hadn't set anything in stone and I was a mess!

How dumb can one girl get.

If I carry on like this I am just going to lose him and it's something that I don't want. I need to lighten up, but my confidence is at a real low right now. I don't know why and it certainly isn't attractive!

I don't know what I need from him to relax a little. Some quality time together might be good, but I am broke and he's probably going away in September to see his sister. The crap thing is that his travels, no matter how he arranges it, fall on out anniversary (4 years!!!)

Oh well, on my facebook, my status says 'FB is such an idiot and really needs to get a grip.' I think that's about right, don't you?

FB xx

Weekend WondersKing Kula Shaker

Comments

DrLaunch # 10. August 2007, 11:05

I guess a relationship needs a certain degree of freedom. If you keep trying to trap him, it's not going to get better.

But. You did a mistake. And why do we do mistakes? So we can learn from them. There's always two sides of a coin. Where there's something negative, there's always something positive.

Self-pity and negative thinking breeds more of it. That's something I know from experience. And I did suffer because of it. But reversing it is certainly possible. It's actually very easy.

Learn from your mistakes and have confidence that it's going to turn out well. Think positive and positive things will happen.

Shivani # 15. August 2007, 21:33

Woohoo I totally agree drlaunch

Well Fluffy, I feel nearly the same thing (not that my affairs are serious serious) but yet for a girl, it's absolutely normal to feel insecure. I think that's a good sign because ups and downs are better than the calm weather before the storm. This is what really brings the spicy bit of your relationship lol. And talking about "FB is such an idiot", I would say you would be one if you said that again