Fly_in_dance

1. Yahoo 360 will be closed in the near future, maybe few months later. I feel a little mad hearing that news. I had written many entries on my Yahoo blog, I wrote them everyday and got many friends checked it every hours to know what I was feeling, what I was thinking. I posted many of my photos, music, video clip....there. I usually open my Yahoo blog every morning in about 2 years, write down something about my health, my feelling or whatever...I got some new friends from that site. And, the most important thing is, many of my friends can see how I am, what I think... everyday, without asking me to chat with them one by one. And I can write on there about my love, sadness, happiness...
and now it will be closed. I can get the back-up of what I wrote. But I can't keep the link to my friends blog or what they write me. And cannot keep the feeling when I get a new lovely comment from them. It's so terrible, huh?

2. I got a headache now. I worked hard all the day with full of stressed meetings, work paper and suck other things. I feel uncomfortable with my new task, that's why I am stressful these days. But I must try my best to get it well done. It is the last chance for me in this year.

3. I did something that I was not proud of this week. Some suck date made me be more desperate How can I date with a new guy when I always compaire the new one with my ex. Naturally, the new one alway is not as cute/ smart/ manly/warm/rich/nice/sweet as my ex. It's so funny. Because, you know, my ex is not a cute/smart/manly/warm/rich/nice/sweet man. The one who is such perfect is the man who I loved, and still keep his shadow in my mind, not the man who he really is.
Anyhow, the feeling is so terrible, when you try to lie your self in a-you-do-not-love arms, try to tell your self that you can use the new one to erase the ex. So suck.
My close friend gave me a Zippo lighter with the quote: "If you are not with the one you love, love the one you are with. " But I refused that gift. Because I am not desperate enough to love anyone who is being with me
One of two men I met this week is so cute (but not better than my ex =)) ). So sometimes I think about giving him another chance. But...not right now, cause the next 2 week I will be too busy with these damn work.

4. It's so late and I will go to bed after...watching my favourite film. Everything is getting better. Hope so. Or....just feel so.