The deepest darkest corridors of my subconscious.

So it's now 2011. I want to wish all my opera friends all the best for this year!
May good luck and fortune find its way to you throughout this year.
Always follow your heart and pursue your dreams and desires. Never let anyone tell you otherwise or stop you from achieving what you want to achieve. No one can take these things away from you. It is only you who decides these things and nobody else.

It was a bumpy road for me in 2010 but then again which year isn't with its many challenges and confrontations. I finally finished studying and am ready to go out into the work force. It was amazing that I was given the opportunity to meet so many beautiful people last year.

Each friend we have in life will always have a unique friendship to you. No two friendships are the same and I think that is beautiful because no one can copy what you two have. Can this be said for love too? Hmmm I don't know.. let's not go there for now haha

Like every year I learnt a lot of new things. Especially from the lessons I learnt from the people around me. Even though they don't know it, the things I learnt from them are so valuable to me and will hold onto these lessons and apply them throughout the rest of my life.

Sometimes it is hard to express which emotion you are feeling at an exact point in time.

It is funny how we can portray so many different sides of ourselves in just 24 hours. Happiness, sadness, anger, joy, passion, insensitivity, laziness. Interesting how most emotions are juxtaposed with one another, as if they go hand in hand. Is this the theory of every action has an equal and opposite reaction? Maybe that theory might apply to science but it certainly can be applied elsewhere.

After all what goes up must come down right? If I experience extreme happiness, then inevitably the rule must be that I will experience extreme sadness. A caring nature will then inevitably bring on insensitivity and so on. But why must it be this way? Who decides this for us? Is it already all pre-determined? Or maybe this is only my harsh perception of the topic.

So I had a nightmare dream last night..
Wasn't such a nice dream at all!

I dreamt I was with a friend I haven't seen in nearly a year now. We were with a third person who used to be on TV and had his own talk show called Rove. All three of us went to this house that was on sale but no-one was living in it. A dog came out the front door (rottweiler) and it was all in slow motion. It went to attack Rove but my friend managed to push it back with one blow. The dog went to lunge for me all while we're still in slow motion.

My friend wasn't able to save me in time and I ended up falling asleep in the dream as the dog jumped onto me. I awoke inside the house tied up in one of the many empty rooms. The rope wasn't tight and I was able to wiggle free.
I ran around the house screaming my friend's name and couldn't find her anywhere. I ran to the front of the house and saw the curtain starting to raise up from the corner all by itself!

By now I was really freaking out and scared so I made a run for it and went home. I found out that my friend had died because she ate a cake that was inside the house with yellow icing on it. I somehow ran all the way to her house and burst the door open, only to find she was alive and well and was wondering what I was talking about like nothing had happened.

I remember every little bit of detail from the dream too.. The colour of our clothes, the colour of the plants around the house, the conversations, everything. I remember the house having a really bad and evil aura around it when we approached it. It was really frightening when the curtain started to raise up from the corner too..
I could write a whole lot more on what happened but there is just too much detail to type it all out.


Anyway I should mention that I dream very often.
In fact I dream so often that I now can't be bothered remembering what happened in my dreams half the time unless it was something interesting. A lot of people suggested I keep a dream journal which I started doing. The problem with that was that because the dreams were so vivid in my mind, there was too much information to write down on paper and I would write at least 4-5 pages for a dream so it took too long haha. Then I started to type one on the computer instead. Even though it was quicker, it still took too long so I couldn't be bothered.
I now only really remember the dreams that have a big significance to me. I very much believe in our dreams being a pathway to something more, like a message to our foreseeable future. Or a premonition of some sort.

Isn't it funny that when you know you are close to reaching your goals in life, they really seem so far away?

It's annoying when everything is going well, and something always has to come along to bring everything back down to reality. It's like a sine wave, everything will go really great, then the next week everything just crumbles and falls apart around you, then the vicious cycle repeats.