It's me... Fluffybunny - I'm back!!!

It's been a draining day today. The boy woke up at 5.45 this morning and only managed to go back to sleep about the time my alarm went off. I was a little late for work, which really irritates me. I really try hard int he mornings, but my commute is just short of 2 hours there and 2 hours back

Work was ok today I guess. I was having a bit of a 'moment' though as I didn't really understand something that went on today. Made myself look a little silly. I guess I am only human though and there's not a great deal more I could have done. I have been tasked with 2 rather important projects which I'm pleased about, but worried about timelines as I am part time and only have 2 days to do one of them (which just so happens to be the more important one). I'm really happy to be given these responsibilities, but I've never really had to 'lead' anything in the past and I'm nervous. I'm desperate to do well in this job. I have been there 2 years and I love the place. I love my work, the people and the product! I feel under pressure, but I'm keen to deliver and deliver well.

In other news, I stripped the purple out of my hair - Please ignore the gormless look!. It's looking a lot more normal now I was starting to get bored of the dramatic dark colours I kept putting in my hair. I had a whole load of lovely comments today from my work colleagues and best of all, when I got home to Bob tonight (he got back from seeing his son), he liked it too... so maybe I don't even need to re-dye it

It was so good to see him tonight. He really does complete me. We had a bit of a rough week last week, but things are definitely on the up and as always, we are solid as ever. It's hard without him, but it something that I have got used to over the years. It's strange though as I don't think I will ever really be properly used to him going though. It's harder now since we have Alex. He takes a lot out of me and he tends to play up when his Dad is not about. He really notices it for such a young boy.

Anyway, it's almost midnight, I need some sleep after last nights non-existent sleep.

Good night OC xx

So, as a lot of you know, I used to write a lot about my ex, Jon (real name, Dave). Well, after 5 and a half years, that ended and I met the love of my life, Bob (real name, Bob - lol). Bob and I hit it off immediately and after only a week we told eachother how much we loved eachother. Many people told me this was just a rebound, but I knew better. Anyway... Bob has a 7 year old son called Sam. I love him so much and we get on like a house on fire... He lives in Scotland with his Mum, so I don't get to see him very often. It really upsets me as I adore him and wish I could see him more regularly.

After 4 months, Bob and I moved in together. I met Sam after 7 months. We got engaged after 8 Months and Married after 14 months. The few years that I have been absent from here, I can honestly say I have been happy and very much in love. Bob treats me with love, trust and respect. I've never been happier. Back in August last year, August Bank Holiday actually, we decided to have a child and just over a month later, I found out I was pregnant. I now have a beautiful little boy called Alexander.

As if that wasn't enough, Just before Alex was born, we made an offer on a house and we completed a few months later, so we are now paying off our own mortgage and not someone elses. Life is good! I'm back at work now - part time. I miss Alex desperately, but my Dad looks after him and he's amazing with him. I'm so very lucky.

The most negative thing to happen in the past few years is that I lost my grandmother back in December 2010. My Mum then went over to Cyprus to sort things out, but unfortunately found a toyboy and a month ago, married him. It meant that she wasn't there for me during my pregnancy which broke my heart and she's missed a lot of Alex growing up. But the way I see it, is that it's her loss. She's the one missing out. She married a man 3 years older than me My Dad still does a lot for her and luckily they are on good terms.

I will post some photo's in my gallery and maybe upload some in my next post. I hope you are all well... I have missed you x

Leila x