Wednesday, 2. December 2009, 15:16:38
001. Real name → Carrie
002. Nickname(s)→ Erm....yet to happen
004. Zodiac sign → Leo
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Durham High School for Girls...best time of my life ¬_¬
007. Middle School -> See above
008. High School-> DHS
010. Hair color → Originally Red but now black...
011. Long or short Hair → Long, gonna grow it well long though
012. Loud or Quiet → Depends on my mood really
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans FTW
014. Phone or Camera → Phone, I dropped my camera in the sand in greece and it doesnt work so well
015. Health freak → Haha. NOPE. I eat healthily, though am not sure why cos the smoking and drinking counteracts this really
016. Drink or Smoke? Both
017. Do you have a crush on someone? Grace Khold, Ewan McGregor, Dregen and various others, you can dream
018. Eat or Drink → Tend to favour the liquid diet a lot of the time
019. Piercings → Belly, 3 in ears, nose, lip. And want my tongude done.
020. Tattoos → Dope Stars Inc star on my back, Backyard Babies logo on my hipbone. Saving for a memorial piece.
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Two in my ears when I was 12
024. First best friend - Er, God, no idea lol
025. First award → I won an easter bunny in year 5 O_o
026. First crush → hell knows lol
027. First pet → Harry the dog, Jessy the cat. Both RIP 
030. First big birthday → Dunno really
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → Warm corona, lovely.
052. I'm about to → finish getting ready, a very long process! ¬_¬
053. Listening to → Watching I'm a celebrity on ITV Player...im a loser. lol
054. Plans for today → erm, do washing. thats about it haha
055. Waiting for → FRIDAY 
YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → NOOOOO
059. Want to get married? → Dunnooo not something I spend a lot of time thinking about
060. Careers in mind → Journalism? I have no idea really
WHICH IS BETTER?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller, would be a bit wierd otherwise considering am 5 ft 3
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Not really fussed, not fat? lol
074. Sensitive or loud → Bit o' both
075. Hook-up or relationship → In a relationship atm, but either suits
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → trouble maker, don't really like the shy retiring type haha
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Don't wear em
081. Ran away from home → Yeah, to the park across the road for about two hours when i was 15, bit pathetic really haha
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nein, me with a gun is not a good idea
083. Killed somebody → Nah
084. Broken someone's heart → Think so....
085. Been arrested → nope, been searched before though
087. Cried when someone died -> Yes...
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → If you don't, no-one else will.
090. Miracles → Wish one would bloody happen to me!
091. Love at first sight → Not sure
092. Heaven → No
093. Santa Claus → Yeah mon
094. Sex on the first date → Yup, sex is always good
095. Kiss on the first date → Yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yuppp 
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Yeah, if i didnt feel ill it would be better but you cant have everything...
099. Do you believe in God → Fuck no
Sunday, 29. November 2009, 18:23:09
boredom. survey.
1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Can of Grolsch
2) Where was your profile picture taken?
Yates, fishbowl was awesome, can't remember what was in it like...
3. Can you play Guitar Hero?
No. Its embarrassing.
4. Name someone who made you laugh today?
We've been sat watching Jamie play tomb raider, turns out its quite easy to take the piss out of
5. How late did you stay up last night and why?
About 3.30am, was ill
6. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
LA, doesn't fucking rain as much!
7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Nopee
8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
They live in the same unit, so pretty close
9. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Some of mine are, but they tend to be relationships that weren't that serious
10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
Meh. It could be worse.
11. When was the last time you cried really hard?
Erm, probably in June.
12. Who took your profile picture?
Jamie. In zee pub.
13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
A plastic owl lol
14. Was yesterday better than today?
Nah, yesterday was epically shite I have to say
15. Can you live a day without TV?
Yup, do it every day, its calle THE INTERNETTT
16. Are you upset about anything?
Nah not really
17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Hoping so
18. Are you a bad influence?
Probably!
19. Night out or night in?
Either, depends what people are doing!
20. What items could you not go without during the day?
Makeup, phone, internet, music, clothes!
21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Errr God I dunno
22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
Something about having weed, which pissed me off cos I have NONE
23. How do you feel about your life right now?
Its good in general
24. Do you hate anyone right now?
Nopee
25. If we were to look in your Facebook inbox, what would we find?
Messages?
26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
Depens whether its the one that covers the last few days or the last couple weeks
27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
Yup
28. What song is stuck in your head?
Young - Hollywood Undead
29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
DREEEGGENNN or Grace Khold. Either, wouldn't complain
30. Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50?
I dislike children....
Sunday, 1. November 2009, 20:29:36
Let's start out blunt, have you had sex in the last 12 hours?
No, unfortunately.
What about in the last couple days?
Like a week ago.
If you had to choose between the person you love or your brother/sister, what would your reaction be?
I don't have to choose so fuck you 
Whats the most incredible feeling you've ever felt?
lol
What is a word you can make out of your full name?
i was actually going to work this out but can't be arsed
Do you fully trust your best friend?
ayeeee, she rules we need to do a liverpool night
Do you play mind games with other human beings?
No....
Who is the most attractive person you know?
ME. nah, stupid question lol, most people have good qualities
What is your sexual orientation?
men.
What upsets you most currently?
The fact I have a fucking banging headache.
How do you let others know you dont want anything to do with them?
Erm, speak?
What are you waiting for?
Ibuprofen to kick in.
Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
I live in halls, I don't have a front door.
What is under your bed?
Nothing surprisingly
Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
Yeah, havent killed that many brain cells yet.
Did your last kiss take place in or on a bed?
you will never know
Have you ever cried cause you were so mad?
possibly when younger
Have you ever wasted too much time on a guy/girl?
yeah, the kind that go out with you for months then dump you via text, classified as a waste of 5 months partying i would say
Who was the last person that made you laugh?
weve just had a conversation about barney the dinosaur being a paedophile
Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
why do quizzes always ask this....
Did anything brighten up your day today?
Kronenbourg.
Do you remember who you liked three months ago?
Aye.
Do you have any friends that are sluts?
Not greatly, but I dont really care what people do, more about their personality.
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
Yes.
Who do you trust the most?
A few select people
Does anything hurt on you?
Yeah, my knee. fuck knows what ive done to it but it bloody hurts
Did you have a good day today?
not especially
Is there a girl that knows everything about you?
well not everything obviously
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a D?
nope...
What's running through your mind right now?
fuck off headache and cold your ruining my night
Does it bother you when people respond to you with one word?
yeah, but then you realise the convo has ended and dont reply
What color shirt are you wearing?
tie dye grey vest top thingy
What color are your pants/shorts?
Black.
What usually wakes you up in the morning?
at the minute: alarm, banging hangover, cleaner.
Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
yeah.
Whats the closest thing to you that's liquid?
kronenbourg
Ever had a girl best friend?
Yup.
Do you straighten your hair often?
every day.
Do you like messages or comments better?
dont really give a shit lol
What were you doing an hour ago?
work. ish. :/
What are you listening to right now?
nowt
Last thing that you said out loud?
'barney the dinosaur was clearly a paedophile'
Do you think this year will be better than the last?
its been pretty shit so far
Do you like the rain?
NOOOO ON EVERY LEVEL
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
new look...exotic...
Who was the last person you were rude to? Did you have a good reason?
Sometimes I should think before I speak...
Who was the first person you talked to today?
Jamie
If someone is doing something that pisses you off, do you tell them?
Yes.
Explain in detail exactly what you were doing four hours ago:
watching wife swap lol
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
pass out haha
What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
might as well finish this can?
How many people are you texting right now?
two
Without naming names, say one thing to someone?
fuck yoooouuuuuuu
Does your phone have to be charged every day?
no, but it helps if it works...
Friday, 25. September 2009, 15:44:29
Basics:
Name:Carrie
Date of Birth:09.08.89
Birthplace:Sunderland. Nice. ¬_¬
Current Location:Reading/Durham
Eye Color:Blue-grey
Hair Color:black at the minute
Height:short. 5ft3?
Heritage:British with a bit of scottish from somewhere along the line
Piercings:Ears x 3, belly, nose. Soon = tongue. lip.
Tattoos:Two, getting a memorial one when I get zee loan through
Favourite:
Band/Singer:Oooh. Hard one. At the minute I'm into Skindred, Prodigy, Wildhearts. Love Backyard Babies, Deathstars, DSI, Hardcore Superstar, Crashdiet but listen to allsorts: drum n bass, trance, hardcore, punk, metal, sleaze, glam rock, industroal etc
Song:Thankyou God for Jack Daniels 
Movie:oooh. This is england, Ginger Snaps, Requiem for a Dream, Trainspotting, Dead Mans shoes, Club Party Monster, Sid and Nancy, Dead Silence
Disney Movie:Aladdin. Its fucking hilarious I tell thee
TV show:Viva La Bam, Jackass, X Files, Queer Eye, Jeremy Kyle (haha), LA Ink, Come dine with me
Color:Black. White. Red.
Food:Don't like food
Pizza topping:Don't eat pizza
Ice-Cream Flavor:Don't eat ice cream
Drink (alcoholic):JAGERRRRR And a pint is always nice.
Soda:Diet coke, Irn Bru, Lucozade, Oasis
Store:Not fussed
Clothing Brand:EBAY
Shoe Brand:Not fussed
Season:Autumn/Spring
Month:Dont careee
Holiday/Festival:Christmas is canny good like, you get presents and have an excuse to be mortal all the time
Flower:Lily
Make-Up Item:Eyelinerrrrrr
Board game:Fuck you
This or That
Sunny or rainy:Sunny moron
Chocolate or vanilla:Neither
Fruit or veggie:Veggie, don't eat fruit really, or much actually. Prefer the liquid diet
Night or day:Night
Sour or sweet:Sour
Love or money:Both please
Phone or in person:Person, hate ringing people.
Looks or personality:Both pleaseee
Coffee or tea:Coffee, don't like tea
Hot or cold:In the middle.
Your:
Goal for this year:Erm. Try not to die?
Most missed memory:Stepdad. RIP
Best physical feature:Oooh I dunno. You tell me.
First thought waking up:COFFEEE / Why did I mix my drinks / Have that shot or ten
Hypothetical personality disorder:Bipolar
Preferred type of plastic surgery:Boob reduction :/
Sesame street alter ego:The one that lives in the bin? haha
Fairytale alter ego:Alice in Wonderland
Most stupid remark:There are too many to mention
Worst crime:Stole a harmonica from the early learning center when i was 5 SHOCKKKINGG
Greatest ambition:Being paid to drink
Greatest fear:Spiders.
Darkest secret:I am voldemort. No. No idea lol
Favorite subject:English......art.......history
Strangest received gift:Gifts are always nice don't care if their strange
Worst habit:Smoking, weed, drinking. lol General lack of self control
Do You:
Smoke:Ayeee, marlboro reds
Drink:Yes. Way too much.
Curse:Yes. Way too much.
Shower daily:Aye, love me showers.
Like thunderstorms:Not fussed
Dance in the rain:I hate the rain. I certainly wouldn't be fucking dancing in it.
Sing:Badly.
Play an instrument:Piano...though not for a few years
Get along with your parents:Father = FUCK NO. Mother = aye
Wish on stars:Haah
Believe in fate:Karma's a bitch. I believe some people get all the bad craic
Believe in love at first sight:Meh, never appened to me like
Can You:
Drive:Learning. Slowly.
Sew:Badly
Cook:Yes, just is too much effort haha
Speak another language:Broken french, minimal german
Dance:No
Sing:Depends what your expectations are
Touch your nose with your tongue:Nope
Whistle:Yep, thats me made for life
Curl your tongue:Yesss
Have You Ever:
Been Drunk:Me, no. Not EVER.
Been Stoned/High:Regularly...
Eaten Sushi:No. Raw fish is not appealing. or raw anything.
Been in Love:Kinda.
Skipped school:Yup, got boring at times
Made prank calls:Quite possibly
Sent someone a love letter:Haha NO
Stolen something:Yes. Harmonica incident
Cried yourself to sleep:Noo
Other Questions:
What annoys you most in a person?Bullshitters
Are you right or left handed?Right
What is your bedtime?Whenever the fuck I want YEEEEAH Man
Name three things you can't live without:Smokes, beer, makeup, straightners etc
What is the color of your room?Dirty
Do you have any siblings?2 brothers, 2 sisters
Do you have any pets?Not me personally, but me mam has 2 horses, rabbits, chickens, two bird averies, cat, two dogs
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?Yeah. probably less.
What is you middle name?Elisabeth URGH
What are you nicknames?Carrie
Are you for or against gay marriage?Equal rights and stuff
What are your thoughts on abortion?If you don't want a child, you should be allowed the choice
Do you have a crush on anyone?Nope
Are you afraid of the dark?Nope
How do you want to die?Quickly. No nursing home vegetation for me.
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day?Popsicles?
Would you take a bullet for the one you love?Er,,..o_o
What is the last law you’ve broken?The not buying and smoking weed law
In a Member of the Opposite Sex:
Hair color:Unfussed
Eye color:Unfussed
HeightTaller than me, not wanting ne midgets
WeightNot fat
Most important physical feature:Nice looking yes?
Biggest turn-offUgly. Fat. Bullshitter
Thursday, 27. August 2009, 07:44:38
Are you nice to everyone?
I try not to be a complete dick to people; I give everyone a chance, until they piss me off. Some people even I can sense bullshit a mile off and just are plain best avoided to start with.
Does it make you mad when people stare at you?
In parts. To an extent because people are so narrow minded, but then, if you purposely dress in a certain way to stand out ya can’t really kick up a fuss about it can you?
What makes you smile?
Erm, very few things at the minute like.
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/ girlfriend drinks?
Would be a bit hypocritical if I minded like
Do you like to walk in the rain?
No. My hair doesn’t like the rain. Carrie doesn’t like spending half an hour doing her hair plus and then it getting destroyed within two minutes either.
Do you make people angry?
Probably, yeah.
Have you ever eaten soap?
Actually yeah. It was chocolate soap, and me being me, thought it would be good to see if it actually resembled chocolate at-all. It didn’t.
Are you happy with your life?
Hah, no. This year has been pure shite, bring on September.
Where did you get your last bruise from?
Fell up the stairs with a mug of coffee. Carpet came off worse.
Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
Past is past for a reason
Is your room clean?
Well, not really. Cleaned it a couple days ago but somehow shit just ends up all over the place and it ends up looking more like a crack den.
Are you mad at anyone?
Hah. Not greatly at anyone, got an ongoing hate towards karma and the co-op though
Something you do a lot?
Drink, smoke. Complain.
Who was the last person you yelled at?
My brother yesterday, cos he’s one of these people that are 18 but act like fucking uptight pensioners.
Have you had any beer this week?
Yeah, pretty regular occurrence for me like.
Do you have nice eyes?
Apparently. At least they’re not squinty horrible little things, now that would suck.
Did you go to sleep smiling last night?
Who the fuck grins to themselves when they’re trying to sleep?
What do you tend to drink a lot of?
Beer, coffee
Are you a stressed out person?
Hah. This is a weird one... I am actually fairly chilled out until it all builds up and then i completely freak out and go through a phase where i’m constantly grumpy, stressed, negative, and can’t sleep.
In your opinion what is the worst type of weather?
Rain and wind combined. You don’t have a fucking chance, try to use an umbrella and you just look like a knob because you’re walking along the street battling with it turning itself inside out.
Do you smoke crack every day?
No, but I’m thinking of starting like.
Monday, 10. August 2009, 14:09:28
Dad.
Yes. It has been a difficult few weeks for us. You ask what are problem is with contact? The problem is that you seem incapable of SEEING the problem. It's staring you in the face.
Now, considering recent tragic events that have affected your children, an element of concern and helpful gestures would have been frankly, expected.
We are very short of money and the continued way you amazingly manage to keep an expensive car and big house whilst being, oddly, unable to pay more than the minimum maintenance to your children, to keep a roof over their head, for basic living and survival costs, seems unjust and you remain unable to see this, continually saying you can't afford to.
It seems to me you don't want to give up anything that would lower your standard of living, unconcerned about wanting to keep your children in the best lifestyle possible.
Now 'the door is always open?'
Considering what we've just established, you can understand hopefully why you haven't had any visits recently. Plus, you haven't exactly been forthcoming; a couple of texts over two months? Great. Mega concern.
No offer of paying more to cover the lower income your children have to survive on
No how are you?
No how is university stuff going?
No have you run out of the driving lessons I was meant to be paying for you, and oh yeah how are they going anyway?
I'd prefer the door closed
We're fine on our own
Keep your present
Carrie
Saturday, 18. July 2009, 14:03:12
Its been about 6 weeks since my stepdad died
My mam has her good days, and bad days
And my mam is a crying mess today
I'm trying to be supportive, but for once I can't wait to go to work, because it will get me out of the house and she'll be asleep by the time I get back
I just can't deal with it, I sound like a bitch but I need to get away!
I want to have like a magical solution that makes everything better
But there isnt one
And she cries, and cries.
And I miss him too, but it's a different loss for her and we have no idea what it feels like, or what to say. You can't say anything, so you have to sit and watch her cry, and it really starts to get to me after a while and i have to get the fuck out the house ANYWHERE
Tuesday, 7. July 2009, 08:28:37
from some dude in this band: http://www.myspace.com/nightward
" Hello.
I know that this could seem superficial, iniquitous, even scabrous, but for days I've been going in and out of your space trying to scrape together the courage to jot down these lines. By then I couldn't even sleep, without a fluorescent ''Glam Fuck Up™'' appearing behind my eyelids, upsetting my soft slumbers with thrills of uncomprehensible languor.
Well, this is the story: I took a fancy to the projection of you, I mean, the little I can deduce from your images and words. I am at a crossroads, then: to comply with my feelings, coming forward with these barren sentences, or to abandon myself to the silent pleasure of regrets, satisfied with just soothing a desire made so sordid by my own passion?
At last, after many hesitations, I've decided to come forward. Yes, do know that, I would claim it loud under an ivy wall: I run after you.
I wrote you from my band's account because of a last attack of shyness that caught me off guard, even if optimistically inebriated with the desire of you. Anyway, maybe even tomorrow, I'll be able to reveal myself and face my sad destiny.
Alas, here they come again, the arabesques in front of my eyes: Glam Fuck Up™... in fonts made of blood and seed.
Forgive me... your pure British but so Dostoevskijan beauty, divine nectar of a modern Nastasja Filippovna, and your naturalness, like leaves at the beginning of the autumn, play jokes on me, drowning me down in a whirlpool of broken bravery. Yes, I yearn for you, in this morning of lost pride.
So farewell, my fecund goddess... I ask you this thing only: accept my court.
One of the six."
Friday, 19. June 2009, 12:50:17
B>
If its possible, I am now even MORE pissed off because this is the third time i have attempted to write this, due to the really fucking shitty Compaq laptop I unfortunately own deciding to go into 'go slow' mode and make funny whirring noises and repeatedly shutting down making an exploding noise
I wish it were a fucking funny noise
But its not
Its just REALLY FUCKING IRRITATING
But to get to the point
Lets face it
Planning a funeral is going to be hard at the best of times
But in a manner that seems typical to me and my family's life, things managed to get more shit, when we thought they couldn't get any shitter.
Now we chose the co-operative because some cunt decides that right when the police and the coroner are at your house dealing with a sudden death, this would be the ideal and most compassionate time to ask which funeral service you want to use. And because we're in a fucking mess, all over the place, you say the first one that comes into your head. Personally I don't know many funeral services, its not something you consider a lot, so when they suggested the co-op (probably because they get some money for doing so) we agreed. Since then, we have been told they are the most expensive knobheads ever, but you don't really want to go through the whole trauma again do you? Especially not with your continually (and understandably, i'm not totally a heartless bitch) hysterical mother crying 24/7 in the fucking loudest, oddest way possible and making you nearly shit yourself every time.
Here we are, sat with 'Ernie'the funeral director for the co-op, one of the wierdest dudes ever (spock eyebrows as well may i add, which i would think was cool if he wasn't such a DICK that he didn't deserve them). This is a few days after my stepdad died suddenly, so you'd think they'd take it easy on you.
Not fucking Ernie
After twenty minutes of asking bullshit questions (this is his job, i know, but still) he asks for a deposit. On the day. On the hour after he's spoken.
FOR FUCKS SAKE, GIVE US SOME FUCKING TIME RIGHT? Is what you think
You also think, 50 quid or something
You'd be wrong. 799 QUID IS MORE ACCURATE, THE EXPENSIVE FUCKS.
And how many people have that in their bank accounts? Well we don't anymore, because in a time when my mam is skint because there is no money coming into the house now my step-dads gone, the co-op have totally cleaned us out.
Oh yeah. We also forgot, the total funeral cost is 2600 pounds. This is WITHOUT the flowers and remembrance book, and with the cheapest coffin.
So yeah. Also as me and my brother WORK for the co-op and they give us a card to get discount on all their services, my mam, being skint and having a fucking nervy b over not just the situation but also how she's going to pay for her dead husbands ceremony, says well we will get money off right?
FUCKING WRONG.
The cunt, Ernie takes his goddamn time over finding this out (or more accurately not finding this out)and comes back to us saying NO we can't, the card has to be in my mams name for this to apply.
BASTARDS
FUCK MAN, EXPLOITING THE DEAD ISN'T ENOUGH FOR YOU?
AS WELL AS TOTALLY SCREWING OVER THE LIVING (and shutting them in a poky, creepy room with an alarm when they repeatedly go to ask them about money off- i mean who the fuck is going to steal from a funeral service, and if they do, fucking well done whoever that was).
So yeah
I'll probably add to this as the CO-OPERATIVE FUNERAL GROUP get repeatedly SHITTER AND MORE WORTH LYNCHING
Oh yeah, and they delivered the ashes in what looked like a cadbury coloured wine bag.
Thursday, 11. June 2009, 07:34:51
Today I got a phone call off my dad
He was pissed off, because in my late stepdad's obituary announcement in the Northern Echo, we had put him down as being 'a father to us'
He was a father to us, he did more than the fat shit biological father I was stuck with and ruined my mams life for 20 years
And he has the fucking audacity and insensitivity to ring up, 5 days after my stepdads death, and argue about the wording of his funeral announcement and how he wants it changing NOW?
LIKE WHAT A FUCKING CUNT
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