Snowwhitesadmirer

What i wrote last:


Well...its pretty painful yes...but...how can i manage to see you...without being at the same events...?

Im missing you so bad....but im not allowed to contact you or anything in that direction....the only chance to have something that helps me not going completely crazy, at this moment, would be to see you once in a while....not often....and i swear to god, i would just look, not talk to you, your friends or do anything else besides meeting you with my eyes....it`s just....so painful to have nothing....

I don`t want to hurt you...so i completely understand, when you can`t talk to me and refuse to see me...but....im begging you to give me at least this little something.....

All week i feared the day, when i would have to travel from here to the Schiffenberg...in my medieval clothes....and than...the feelings, when i would see you... all this made up a lot of fear in me but...it`s all better than nothing...