My OperaWhat is life when mirrors are involved?
Monday, November 9, 2009 10:18:39 PM
I have been changing.
I've never felt so, flustered with the way things are going as I have been lately.
I feel ridiculous in the way that I can't make up my mind nor I can't forgive anymore
Is it impending, and one day I will just combust?
My voice feels stronger though.
When I sing I feel powerful, I feel... Unstoppable.
I try to appeal to all the great aspects of life but something is holding me back.
I'm low on money, starting to function differently.
I'm losing weight, it's odd.. but anyways I'm grateful for it.
I used to be ugly, filled with blemishes, and never living in clear eyes.
but A part of me has grown to acknowledge the physical form I'm living in.
Is it a crime to love?
I wonder that every day.
Heather, is beautiful, full of flaws but yet, every time I lay eyes on her I can't help but crack an awkward smile.
It's relieving though, to know I have someone in this world to love and that loves me mutually.
I wonder though, will her mistakes get the best of me?
I've tried so hard to bury our terrible past away but everyday it seems it begs me to be dug up.
Now, I live in constant fear of a part of her past reawakening and once again bringing horror back into my life.
But, then, I know she's wonderful.
Truly, I would love nothing more than to give her an eternity of unending happiness.
Is it a crime to hate?
That question, is a wonder to me..
I have hate built up inside me for so many people who have stepped on me and told me I have to be better. Who have taken away from me the things I held most valuable. like Skylar...
"SHUT UP SHAWN, ITS BEEN A YEAR"
I tell myself that everyday. It's still so hard to remember everything we had. Everything we cherished about each other.
She, was infected though...
A terrible thing known as lust was attached to her like a cyst of some sort.
It destroyed us...
but, The Flower Remained.
I always wondered if I was good enough for you.
Sadly, life turns violently in different directions. It's not fair and it doesn't to wait for you. It's a deadly circle nobody can get out of. The hardest part is conquering that beast. I don't know if thats ever been done by anyone but if it has, you are a god.
-Shawn
I've never felt so, flustered with the way things are going as I have been lately.
I feel ridiculous in the way that I can't make up my mind nor I can't forgive anymore
Is it impending, and one day I will just combust?
My voice feels stronger though.
When I sing I feel powerful, I feel... Unstoppable.
I try to appeal to all the great aspects of life but something is holding me back.
I'm low on money, starting to function differently.
I'm losing weight, it's odd.. but anyways I'm grateful for it.
I used to be ugly, filled with blemishes, and never living in clear eyes.
but A part of me has grown to acknowledge the physical form I'm living in.
Is it a crime to love?
I wonder that every day.
Heather, is beautiful, full of flaws but yet, every time I lay eyes on her I can't help but crack an awkward smile.
It's relieving though, to know I have someone in this world to love and that loves me mutually.
I wonder though, will her mistakes get the best of me?
I've tried so hard to bury our terrible past away but everyday it seems it begs me to be dug up.
Now, I live in constant fear of a part of her past reawakening and once again bringing horror back into my life.
But, then, I know she's wonderful.
Truly, I would love nothing more than to give her an eternity of unending happiness.
Is it a crime to hate?
That question, is a wonder to me..
I have hate built up inside me for so many people who have stepped on me and told me I have to be better. Who have taken away from me the things I held most valuable. like Skylar...
"SHUT UP SHAWN, ITS BEEN A YEAR"
I tell myself that everyday. It's still so hard to remember everything we had. Everything we cherished about each other.
She, was infected though...
A terrible thing known as lust was attached to her like a cyst of some sort.
It destroyed us...
but, The Flower Remained.
I always wondered if I was good enough for you.
Sadly, life turns violently in different directions. It's not fair and it doesn't to wait for you. It's a deadly circle nobody can get out of. The hardest part is conquering that beast. I don't know if thats ever been done by anyone but if it has, you are a god.
-Shawn
