Monday, September 19, 2011 9:54:16 AM
well, well, well...
happy days, i have a music video now, with jimmy kihara singing 'love got to give' (of course it's on you tube) a great song, and my guitar playing is stratospheric!!!!i also do backup vocals on the choruses...lotsa fun...unfortunately jimmy is not the best at the moment, so we didn't finish that record..or cd or wotevah
earlier this year, also I met an old friend, Cassandra, and we ended up writing 6 shit hot songs, man there was some sort of chemistry going on there...that girl can sing and write lyrics very well...unfortunately she's not feeling too well at the minute either...hmmmmm
so we also recorded 5 of my songs, re-recorded 'It's Unreal', and 'Talk of Love'; first time recordings of 'All the Way', 'Change the Deal' and my personal favourite 'Cause we got High'. There are at least 4 or 5 other fully written songs to get down ASAP...oh yeah, Sandra did this awesome cd cover artwork...a tattoo on my forearm with a whale, and maori designs...
This year I have rented an Art Studio here in Randwick, and I now have 26 art works finished and framed...it's awesome stuff, that I have been trying to achieve for such a very long time, and now with god's grace I have been able to finally get there!!!!!!!
on the woman front, I have been seeing three different people for the past year, and each of them is so beautiful, and forgiving, and caring and loving...there is no intent on my part to take things any further, unless they want me to, we shall see... I'm too old now to go running around wasting my precious energy...to quote Tracy Chapman...i'm too busy anyhoo
I have got back to going regularly to church, a great pastor, and i am back in AA...i want to design a tee shirt that goes...DO NOT GIVE THIS MAN ALCOHOL...and I really don't miss it either, cause alcohol is so very limiting...physically, mentally, and emotionally, and it's a depressant...I just don't need it
Saturday, September 18, 2010 9:32:34 PM
well here it is...I tried to show a woman how good I can be and once again I proved to be too much...
where is the woman who can share my life experience with me and not be afraid of trusting life...
i will not choose to believe such a woman does not exist, and every time I try I get a little closer...god knows just this last time I thought, felt and believed it was happening to me, right in front of my face, ...
so thats the thing, life goes on, back to painting so I have some stuff for when Flicka gets here this week...
who knows, I hope to get studio space at Brett Whitely's studio...what a good thing that would be, aye?
ahmm, and then theres finally talking with me eldest son Simon, thank god for facebook, Hayden, the Framus guitar my god gave me last Sunday, the Larrivee, the Les Paul and the new band (where are u Jonny), the beautiful weather and the beach, enjoying the 'fruits of the universe', so very many things to keep busy with...
happy days
namaste over and under
gtrgy
Tuesday, July 20, 2010 4:29:20 PM
Ok I have now got a job interview at the hospital ... This could really b the start of a new life for me
The music is all getting better and I am painting and drawing all the time now
Have started writing songs about too many people in the world and the wanton destruction of our planet
Things are going to get well shook up soon (some say it will b in 2012 and I tell you I am looking forward to it
Aussie has an election on august 21 should b fun
Met a new girl called Maria she's Greek, an artist and she used to do computer programming
If it turns out she's just another moron I will b disappointed we met today and talked for hours about everything and apart from music we are like a mirror image of each other she said she will cme to dinner with me somthats all good
Monday, March 22, 2010 2:04:46 AM
Just had interview for work installing Solar Panels. I'm gonna be so happy if I get it!
I've got the rest of the day off, have to pay my one bill, and finish writing those two letters.
Then it's back to working on the two songs for this week; If You Wanna, and Lonesome Blue
If You Wanna is blues rock, with a few good changes in it. The high guitar parts give the tune a real kick, at the chorus.
I really do like the lyrics Will wrote, it's the right message for me to be singing about.
"if you wanna see a grown man cry,
Listen to me and I'll tell you why
This world we created don't seem right
Good men hide and stay outta sight"
Lonesome Blue is a forlorn ballad ( is there any other kind:))
it skips along slightly more than a ballad and the vocals and harmonies are sublime
So I have got the complete arrangement done. This week I'm going to do "Stalingrad" and " call out your Name"
Last night i painted a pastel landscape which worked well
onwards you good thing
Friday, March 19, 2010 10:15:20 AM
As previously mentioned choosing happiness works.
There are so many positive aspects in doing this and it is actually so easy to do.
I feel so sorry for people who dont understand this concept and I realize there is always alcohol or drugs involved when people can't get it.
Having spent many years free of these curses I can be more forgiving to the people afflicted. If.only they knew that being clean would offer them the " enlightenment" they desire from outside sources.
It's like walking around blind folded ( blind fooled?
)
the thing is, the alcohol and negative behaviour go hand in hand and the absolute worst side effect of the two is depression. Alcohol is a scientifically proven depressant faw gawds sake
you will never convince me otherwise that all these drinkers who think they are so intelligent or spiritually evolved can
"find themselves" and think they are better than people who they have brought into their life to teach them, and instead of learning the lesson continue to berate, blame, accuse and run down the very person who gave everything and more in the hope that the drinker would somehow miraculously " get better"
For this is my little moment of enlightenment in a certain area I had trouble letting go.
I spent two years with a wonderful human who was afflicted with the drink ( for her own valid reasons), I took huge risks and even put myself in harms way for this person, I gave away a beautiful life I had created for myself, because I accepted the decision to do this.
She has taught me so many wonderful things, too numerous to mention, she helped me In many other ways also.
I overlooked many things I have learnt to avoid for her sake
and do you know it? She isn't even cognizant of my reality and how far I went to be with her.
After two years of this, even though the feelings I had were the deepest and strongest I have known, and it broke my heart for two years more, I was deep down happy she left my life.
For I was so far in I couldn't do it myself, so ( and I admit it was wrong) I created events that lead to her actions. It was all I could do.
I have recently discovered this person has used me as a target for her deep unhappiness and negativity.
This university graduate was already bitter and angry towards men, and I went into it all knowing this.
Love is many things, however a person who uses it repeatedly to keep hurting herself and the other party really ought to give it all up and go live in a bhuddist retreat...and she probably would have if they let you drink there...but of course they don't.
Any hoo methinks that I digress too much
so for anyone out there in blogland who drinks and is looking for enlightenment you're gonna have to give up the drinkies
NAMASTE
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 1:26:33 PM
Ok then...
I will now endeavour to find and use the right words to convey an idea I cherish above nearly everything else.
Do I hate, no... do I prejudice, noo
Do I intensely dislike NEGATIVE beahaviour? YES
The single most powerful thing I learnt as a parent raising my two children is to seperate the two... It's peoples behavior that upsets me. I can still love them and yes indeedy FORGIVE them, for I am as human as they are and I make exactly the same mistakes, until I GET IT ( to paraphrase the venerable Dr. Phil)
I realize people ( each and every one of us) are so confused about this life we share, and we all carry hurts and pain and yes, life is suffering.
Yet I know also that we can choose happiness.
Happiness is being content with all that we have, even if that means having not eaten for three days, having no money and nowhere to live for months.
I have experienced these things more than once.
I came up with this saying to reassure myself in 1990..." I have everything I need. If I don't have it I don't need it."
Yes, I still suffer, I still get hurt feelings, yet because of my personal life experience I know ( my deep faith also helps) that I will be alright.
I know that there are always some things I can do to change my situation in a positive way.
The best thing to do ALWAYS IS TO REMOVE NEGATIVITY. Negative people are the first to go, I have the ability to recognize them early on and just have to wait till they f@&k up and start passing their negativity onto me.
I am blessed that I love myself, and I have the courage to 'see' things how they really are.
I struggled for years with this, thinking everyone could do that ( well I'm fairly sure whoever wrote AVATAR knows how). Sadly I have come to realize this is plainly not the case.
I'm not going to pontificate and tell you I have found eternal bliss either... That doesn't happen here on Earth in our lifetime. The best we can do is to care for ourselves, love ourselves and forgive ourselves for all our failings... Oh yeah and work hard and be good to our parents.
There, I think I said it all...
I was going to quote various sage and venerable people ( well I did with Dr Phil) but I'm sure you've read them all before if you are a seeker and want to walk in the light.
Remember... We are light workers, warriors, and the battle is all around. NEGATIVITY is where the darkness feeds, and because it doesn't take courage, the weak foolishly choose it as an option first. Why take responsibility for your actions when it's so easy to blame someone.
THIS BLOG ENTRY IS DEDICATED TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CHOOSE TO PERSECUTE, BLAME, ACCUSE AND GENERALLY CONTRIBUTE TO THE CONTINUANCE OF DARKNESS IN ALL ITS MANIFESTATIONS
Monday, March 15, 2010 1:47:49 PM
Well it seems I am in another state of flux,with all sorts of things going on around me left right and center.
I start a completely new type of employment today which I hope goes well.
There is an opportunity to move to a house with free rent which is the best thing at the moment for me.
Music is happening again, which is great, and I hope the recording will all get done... I will be trying my darndest anyway
saw Michael today that was great, and I am getting into a space to do more pastel paintings. YAY!
This time I have more incentive and a clearer idea of the goals to achieve.
It's up to me to earn a good living from my creativity and I WILL!
Good things do come to those who wait...
Also I have found a way to complete the design and construction of my idea I had when I was 18.
I am actually very excited about the prospect of getting this done.
Onwards we go, into the valley of death fearing no evil because I have an unshakeable belief in myself and the energy I create.
Friday, March 20, 2009 9:28:09 AM
March 20
still stuck in sudnee, austruckingfailure
now there's the 'great recession' and all types of weird and wonderful things going on...a black man in the white house (I was dumbstruck that Americans could make such a momentously brilliant change of leader), government handouts to idiots who have nearly caused the end of the financial world as we knew it, those same idiots giving million dollar bonuses to the very same idiots who made all the so-called 'toxic assets'...
I don't have a university degree, but I really don't need one to know that if a business fails, the owners go broke...that is unless you are a bank, or huge financial corporation, and who are the ones who control most of todays global activity I ask? oh yeh, these very same rich fat (obese) cats
well, the rich get richer, the poor get the picture,it's never gonna change thats for sure...(to mis-quote one of my favourite bands, Midnight Oil
I hope all you rich fu#$ers die a horrible death and have to live to the end of eternity meditating on the detriment of GREED
and meanwhile, is it just me or is it quietly convenient that the "GFC" comes along right when the earth and (ergo) all of us inhabitants on it are facing the greatest ecological disaster of all time that really ought to be consuming each and every one of our waking hours trying to remedy.
democracy and freedom at the expense of the planet...that is the trade we, yes all of us collectively have to shoulder the responsibility through our own inaction, have made...past tense
just keep watching and buying the mindless shit on tv, and idly stand by telling ourselves that we have to be so engrossed in our own feeble minute problems that we cant possibly do anything, and watch the earth slowly gurgle down the old toilet...
SO HOW ON EARTH CAN WE EVEN KEEP IT TOGETHER SO THE WHITE MOOSES CAN CO-EXIST WITH US !!!!!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008 10:19:40 AM
well three months of the most full on situations and beauty, love, laughter, tears joy, the whole range of intense emotions and learning situations.
and we're still going at it...but things are improving, and soon enough the ship will be back on an even keel. we may well get a kitten aussi.
Lea - Gael Catalaa is a wonderful kind, soft and warm loving woman who has decided that I am a good man.
I like her.
Music is going well, I play most weeks now in public and also go to Kings Cross in Sydney busking with Jim the Kenyan Rastafarian. Summer has been late but good, and I am still swimming.
Sold a painting yesterday, the first art sale for some time.
Hayden better call soon.
Namaste
Sunday, December 2, 2007 9:44:04 AM
my emotions are all 'at sea' if you will pardon the pun concerning the approaching mayhem that the Japanese are going off to the southern ocean to perform.
I will never accept that any killing of whales is alright and the fact that they are going to kill 1,000 of these magnificent animals is an abomination.
I want the whole world to condemn the whole japanese race who obviously support this misguided and insane action.
If I had a ship big enough I would sail it right down there and ram the bejesus out of each and every one of the murderous mother #@*$ers...
I am appalled and so very sad that I have to live in a world that, by its own inaction, condones this immoral, illegal, unsanctioned, deplorable (is that enough adjectives 4 ya?) criminal act of totally unjustified slaughter...
save the whales.....please..............................
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