Lauren

Show me.

Tuesday, 31. March 2009, 07:39:14

Oh man, I know this isn't right. It's not normal. Or is it? Maybe it's just not right, didn't I just say that? Or maybe it's just not healthy. Be my escape. Take me away. Can you be my escape? Sure you can, that is what you say. You can take me away. You can take all the pain away. You can be my life. You ARE life.
I'm just blind, I can't see. It's too far away. Too, too, too far away. There has to be hope. If not, I wouldn't be alive. I wouldn't have survived. There is a reason. There is always a reason. We are just too blind to see. Too blind to see. Can you show us? Can you show me? Show me please.

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Isolated

Sunday, 15. March 2009, 03:17:07

So I have only left the house once in the past month, and that was to go to the doctor. I feel so unbelievably isolated from the world right now. And what makes it worse is that I don't want to leave. I don't want to be around people, I don't want to be seen. People keep asking me to do stuff, but I keep declining, when will it end? I hate this feeling.

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Old

Wednesday, 11. March 2009, 05:54:20

Argh...I feel old. What happened to being a kid??

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The flu?

Monday, 16. February 2009, 04:08:36

Flu Cold Sickness

So I decided to go to the movies on Thursday (first time out of the house in about a week or so) and I know I got some kind of sickness from there because I haven't been out recently. On Friday, I woke up and had a headache pretty much all day and just felt like sleeping. Saturday I woke up feeling ok, but then around 7pm I started to feel a little sore throat coming on, by 3 am, it was a full blown sore throat and I started to get a stuffy nose and then minor aches and pains...but it was the worst sore throat I've ever had, so bad that I couldn't sleep and even Motrin didn't help at all. Then around 7 am Sunday morning I started to drink a soda and then drank another one. After that I could barely feel any of my sore throat. I felt like I was getting better throughout the day, until 7pm...I suddenly got really bad aches and pains all over, then I started shaking uncontrollably. I took Motrin immediately and didn't stop shaking until 20 or so minutes had passed. During that time I felt really hot but cold at the same time, I took my temperature twice and got 99.3 first then 101 the second time, but couldn't really breathe through my nose enough to try it a third time...I'm pretty sure it would've gone up more because that is the way that thermometer works (I need a new one). Anyways, the shaking did stop after about 20 minutes, and the aches got better but didn't stop until about 30 minutes after that. From about 8 until now I have had minor aches and a runny nose and a minor headache. I took Nyquil about 25 minutes ago and now I am feeling better but sweating, so I know I was starting to get another fever. Does this sound like the flu? I have had the flu before but have never had anything like this.

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