Harry...the man!

I fell on black days...

Monday, November 14, 2011 10:12:27 PM

depression, Honda Civic, work, Chris Cornell, Soundgarden

Thanks Chris Cornell and Soundgarden for that song title and lyric, but it's so apt for my life at the moment. I woke up yesterday and looked in the mirror. My eyes were bloodshot and I felt very tired. I thought to myself, 'I've a pile of letters to open and read, a lot of unopened emails and my finances are in disarray. I feel pressure at work and I feel pressure keeping up with my friends. And outside my passenger side wing mirror on my car is cracked following a little collision that I had the day before.' I realised - my life is slipping out of control.

I felt so down and lethargic I went to bed at 8.30pm yesterday evening and struggled to get out of bed this morning.

I went to work today looked around and thought "f**k 'em". I just done my job and didn't worry about hitting targets at work or anything. Who cares if our manager gave us all a hard time again?

Somehow the day went okay. And I've made inroads into my pile of post and emails that needed attention. I'm not finished yet.

This week it's all about my elderly Honda CivicThe firework weekend

Comments

0x29a # Monday, November 14, 2011 11:53:28 PM

I totally understand that feeling. For me it was called apathy. It was apathy stemming from the realisation that my needs were not being met, and not knowing what to do about that. The digital shoulder is here should it suit you.

What's your Great Dream, Harry?

Harry...the man!harrytheman # Tuesday, November 15, 2011 7:51:12 PM

I've a few dreams. I like children, young girls take to me in particular and they tend to twist me round their finger. I'm a big kid really. I like writing and reading. And I'd like to have more money - enough money to help other people. Oh, and I like blogging with my friends on MyOpera.

Mad Scientist (عادل)qlue # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 8:19:31 AM

At our age they usually refer to this as a 'mid life crisis'

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What they don't realise is that it's a damned long 'mid'-life.

Tom RondelloFrlmnk # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 8:26:37 AM

"Society" has been inducing that in me since about the age of 21 or, is that 18?

Do I hear the Will Tell Overature?

Mad Scientist (عادل)qlue # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 8:34:00 AM

I wasn't that old when it started for me.

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The whole, "finish school, get a job, work until you die!" thing just isn't right.

~ latemate ~Lazeeitus # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 10:24:43 AM

.. yeah, i was giving my 6years old son some 'words' to translate' recently and when i suggested the word 'old' he replied '' old is dead '' . . hmm i thought 'fuck,i'm 51 already !..

( cynical little git ) ..

FlaRin # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 11:37:27 AM

Naaah - you're not old until you're dead - I'm sure that's what he meant. 6 is too young for full blown cynicism

Tom RondelloFrlmnk # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 1:37:56 PM

I've been getting kicked out of Zucotti for 4 decsdes! I'm crunching until I'm preggers.

git! I think.

I've never actually heard a recording of SoundGarden just have a $5 booklet that still should come with a warning. I've woken up with dimples before but have never gotten tendonitous over spilt milk.

0x29a # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 4:10:40 PM

Originally posted by harrytheman:

I've a few dreams. I like children, young girls take to me in particular and they tend to twist me round their finger. I'm a big kid really. I like writing and reading. And I'd like to have more money - enough money to help other people. Oh, and I like blogging with my friends on MyOpera.

Excellent! Then all is not lost. I've asked people about their dreams before and all I've been given were blank stares. Dreams are what keep us alive, I think. Even if they are outlandish and likely unobtainable.

Maybe it's time for an adventure, Harry.

(I'll tell you my Soundgarden story when I get to the UK on my way to or from India. (Still working out the logistics on that as far as where I go first.))

Harry...the man!harrytheman # Wednesday, November 16, 2011 7:41:44 PM

Well, I 've sorted out all of my emails and excelled at work so far this week. Suddenly my manager thinks I'm great. Meanwhile, the girl who sits next to me at work has been bursting into tears from the pressure at work and the guy opposite me has been cynically arguing with manager. Morale seems to be low all round at the moment.

Anyway, I'm determined to get out of this. Sunday morning was a bit of a wake up call to me that I've been letting it all slip away.

And, Andrew, looking forward to the Soundgarden story.

Bad WolfCois # Friday, November 18, 2011 8:25:03 AM

welcome to my life..
But i've found that one wild night with lots of regrets will make the morning look that much brighter.
Untill you have to look some people in the eyes..