My OperaTwo bags of bridge mixture later...
Sunday, May 16, 2004 4:35:32 AM
Yes. I've been binging on bridge mixture. What is bridge mixture? Its various things (nuts, gelatin, raisins, various fondants) confectionary. Fake chocolate.
But hey does the trick. Okay, so am pretty much over the disappointment of the two failed applications (mutter mutter).
But what do ya do? Life goes on.
Talked to some friends in Montreal who are also in academics. Was good - they understood exactly how I felt and knew what to say.
So now, the plan is to focus on my present project, finish the work, write the papers and apply for more funding.
Could be worse really. I looked around me today, looked around properly and realised that this "problem" I have is really over-stated in my mind.
Ya ya ya. Rationalization I know but what the hell. Gotta rationalize somehow or go crazy.
So anwyay, I carry on as usual. And make the project work the way I want it to. Can't control the funding but can control the outcomes of the work.
and there are good things happening, lots of momentum, getting a team together, and working things out that nobody else can be bothered to do.
But of course there are still moments when I feel like kicking things.
Anyway. to change the subject: Racoons. Had a fight with one last night. The horrible little beast (hlb) tried to steal my mop. Don't ask why, it just wanted it so as it was dragging it away by the mop part of it, I grabbed the handle and yanked it away.
Tried to belt the hlb a good one but it dodged it and ran away but still peered at me. So I grabbed my camera flash and gave it one or two right in the eyes. Only then did it deign to go away.
HLB. They knock pots over and dig things up.
BAH. Death to all racoons. And squirrels!
But hey does the trick. Okay, so am pretty much over the disappointment of the two failed applications (mutter mutter).
But what do ya do? Life goes on.
Talked to some friends in Montreal who are also in academics. Was good - they understood exactly how I felt and knew what to say.
So now, the plan is to focus on my present project, finish the work, write the papers and apply for more funding.
Could be worse really. I looked around me today, looked around properly and realised that this "problem" I have is really over-stated in my mind.
Ya ya ya. Rationalization I know but what the hell. Gotta rationalize somehow or go crazy.
So anwyay, I carry on as usual. And make the project work the way I want it to. Can't control the funding but can control the outcomes of the work.
and there are good things happening, lots of momentum, getting a team together, and working things out that nobody else can be bothered to do.
But of course there are still moments when I feel like kicking things.
Anyway. to change the subject: Racoons. Had a fight with one last night. The horrible little beast (hlb) tried to steal my mop. Don't ask why, it just wanted it so as it was dragging it away by the mop part of it, I grabbed the handle and yanked it away.
Tried to belt the hlb a good one but it dodged it and ran away but still peered at me. So I grabbed my camera flash and gave it one or two right in the eyes. Only then did it deign to go away.
HLB. They knock pots over and dig things up.
BAH. Death to all racoons. And squirrels!
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