My day today

Sometimes I wonder if there is really any reason, to wake up each day. It is the same day in and day out. Nothing new happens, the kids get up and go to school, the rain continues to poor and the air is cold. I clean the house but it gets dirtier faster than I can clean. So I ask the question again and again 'Why do I even bother?' but yet the days come and go, bleeding one into another. The world is going to hell around me and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Sometimes I wonder if there is really anything that I would really want to do to stop it. My children are my legacy, I am proud of them as I watch them go through their lives doing the same things I did, teaching their children the same morals and values I tried to teach their parents, ( and failed miserably I am certain.). I can only hope and pray that I will have made a difference and was strong enough for them.
I see my grand children in pictures only and I cry and ache terribly because they are so far away. However with today's world keeping in contact with them is easier than ever. Texting, emails, social networks are all making it easier for families to stay in touch and for those who are to far away to see.
I cried when my oldest son, sent me a video on my phone, of his new born son. I cried. He was beautiful and I know how happy his daddy is.
This is to the day when I will be able to hold my grandchildren and hug my children. I will cry like crazy and the kids will want to lock me in a closet til I stop, but I will keep the thought of seeing them in the very front of my minds eye.