My OperaFreedom? Suicide? which is best... or is one just the same as the other?
Friday, December 14, 2007 11:36:57 AM
Howdy
Long time no post, (again). I guess im not 100% into this whole blog thing... although, having said that, I now have 3 accounts
I am busy creating alter egos to enjoy and dream about.
I was on the bus today, looking at the people - and I wondered, what is their story? Which ones of them feel like me? Lonely, sad and miserable? When i walk past people on the streat, or serve them at work, how many of them just want to crawl under their beds and die? I wonder... and I wish I had the courage to go up to randoms, speak to them, get to know them. Make friends.
But, im just a coward ;(
I should right about funny stuff. However, today is my day of serious stuff, because I am sad.
I have a friend who is moving interstate. Its funny - i will miss her so much, but...
Anyway, im miserable because I want to see her, but sometimes I think that hell, maybe she doenst like seing me? Its a possiblility...
Do you ever feel like you are falling, like the stars are hurtling past you, and you could just reach out and grab them? Like you are on a high, and you love it! - but you know you'll hit the ground?
Picture a tidal wave. On it, you are surfing... and the wave crashes over the beach. You are having the ride of your life, surfing like never before, as the wave you ride destroy's the beachfront, ruins buildings, trees, everything in its path - and finally the water subsides, and you are left standing on the rubble. And you realize that you just screwed everything that is important to you, but you'd do it all again... because you just are past caring?
Well, thats me.
Ian
Long time no post, (again). I guess im not 100% into this whole blog thing... although, having said that, I now have 3 accounts
I am busy creating alter egos to enjoy and dream about. I was on the bus today, looking at the people - and I wondered, what is their story? Which ones of them feel like me? Lonely, sad and miserable? When i walk past people on the streat, or serve them at work, how many of them just want to crawl under their beds and die? I wonder... and I wish I had the courage to go up to randoms, speak to them, get to know them. Make friends.
But, im just a coward ;(
I should right about funny stuff. However, today is my day of serious stuff, because I am sad.
I have a friend who is moving interstate. Its funny - i will miss her so much, but...
Anyway, im miserable because I want to see her, but sometimes I think that hell, maybe she doenst like seing me? Its a possiblility...
Do you ever feel like you are falling, like the stars are hurtling past you, and you could just reach out and grab them? Like you are on a high, and you love it! - but you know you'll hit the ground?
Picture a tidal wave. On it, you are surfing... and the wave crashes over the beach. You are having the ride of your life, surfing like never before, as the wave you ride destroy's the beachfront, ruins buildings, trees, everything in its path - and finally the water subsides, and you are left standing on the rubble. And you realize that you just screwed everything that is important to you, but you'd do it all again... because you just are past caring?
Well, thats me.
Ian
galadriel # Friday, December 14, 2007 12:12:46 PM
I'm sure your friend does not not like seeing you! You're not that horrible enough to make someone move to Canberra
I should go to bed, but I can't be bothered. It's a whole metre away!!!