Trip to Alps, a metaphysical journey
Sunday, December 13, 2009 9:43:16 PM
I wanted to say that this trip has done something to my consciousness, but, it's my consciousness that has changed to create this trip. The change is internal, the trip is the out picturing of my idea. The trip began with my friend inviting me to visit him while the concert tour he's on is between concerts. The most time in between gigs is between Birmingham then Manchester, UK. That then is my entry point.
It's from there that my personal expansion has simply exploded. The evolution of my consciousness came from the thought that if I'm over in the UK around the 28th of December, it would be stupid to NOT spend New Years either in London or Paris (or some other cool place). After all, one of my contexts is that I live in Los Angeles. I've lived here now the longest I've lived anyplace, including childhood.
While I'm sure that LA has great things going on for New Years, in my mind, it wouldn't match the being over in London or Paris for a new beginning. I hemmed and hawed at the decision of what to do after seeing my friend. My lack of decision making told me I wasn't clear. A decision after all, will be clear, and actions will follow, but not if the decision is still a sense being created, in its pre decision form of pondering, wondering or figuring things out.
Then I had a conversation with someone and the conversation turned to snow skiing, which I hadn't done for years and really couldn't relate to his current love of skiing. That conversation ended, but it was that conversation that kept coming into my consciousness. Over and over, the thoughts kept coming from within asking if I should go skiing. Skiing...Skiing. That's kinda "crazy" isn't it? The Swiss Alps? Ski the Swiss Alps? France, oh I love France. The French Alps? The French Alps? Can I? Skiing? Oh, this is crazy. I haven't done that in YEARS. Ski the French Alps? Are you kidding? I don't even like the cold!
These thoughts kept coming when finally I read an Essay by Ralph Waldo Emerson which clarified everything for me. The essay was CIRCLES. It talks about the expansion of ourselves in our own beings, how when we end one circle, necessarily, we must begin another. We must grow from within ourselves to a greater expression of ourselves. After reading this, and talking about it in a class, actually, I was clear.
Something inside of me was calling, like I had heard so many years before, a Calling that I should just do something. Now that Calling was calling me to go skiing. The Calling came in the form of persistent thinking about it and from out of nowhere. Recognizing that this was a larger part of me that was doing the Calling, that was speaking the message, that night after the class I took on Emerson, I called the hotel via SKYPE, and booked the hotel. The next day, I booked the train down to the Alps, two days ago, received the train tickets. The actions followed from the clarity that my Greater Self was the guide here. It was now clear.
This whole experience has been an evolvement in my consciousness. I realize also that this being a "big deal," doesn't mean that it is. As I continue to embody the idea, the concept, I expand inwards, into myself, into a deeper level of confidence and sense of self, I realize that this trip may not be so "crazy," after all, but could simply be my new "normal." So, while on the surface, I'm just going skiing. That's it. Look what this has all come from, though, it's come from an idea, and that's the real journey, the journey in my consciousness. The actual trip is the out picturing and the EXPERIENCE of the idea, and you can BET that I won't be thinking on this journey to the degree that I am here. I will be experiencing and living fully. After all, if I DARE to dream the last part of the Dream, and I'm genuinely not really attached to this, but I may be at an outdoor dance party at midnight at Courchevel 1850 on December 31st/January 1st, 2010.