Shigatsu no onna

I was walking home, well it was raining and dark. It was not so far only about 10-15 minutes by walk from office to my home.

I hate rain and thunder, months ago there was flooding here and electricity was off for about 4 days. You can imagine that people here lives under the darkness, cold and no clean water or enough food. But it was gone, the nightmare was over. Even though, it was not totally gone. It left trauma in my mind. Whenever theres rain and thunder, i feel like a little kitty that lost its mom.

So, the night when i was walking home i kind of bit annoyed but i tried to relax my self by music.
Then, there was some guys suddenly attacked me. Yes, it was sound like kidnapping even they did not make it because people heard i was screaming and they helped me.

What i was thinking a couple minutes after that, how if they got me? how if they kidnap me and rape me?

I heard many victim of rape was lives under trauma and some of them got suicided because they could not bear the shame.

If there was no people help me, and they kidnap me and rape me, i might get suicide. i will never can bear all those shame things.

All i was thinking , how i will face someone i love if its happen to me? how i tell him about this?