from the minute i could talk...i was ordered to listen

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Its so hard to stand
beneath these trembling walls.
Inside this vacant city
Inside this world, quaking...falls.

It's so hard to see
Inside this darkened soul.
Under this frail facade
under this sky, gaping hole.

It's so hard to feel
Under that eager weight.
Behind this empty man
Behind this mass, swelling hate.

No one said
It's so hard to live
Behind this fragile hymn
Beneath this worn ceiling
Beneath this light...growing dim.

Mumford and Sons- Roll Away your stone


Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine
Together we can see what we can find
Don’t leave me alone at this time,
For I am afraid of what I will discover inside
You told me that I would find a home,
Within the fragile substance of my soul
And I have filled this void with things unreal,
And all the while my character it steals
The darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
It seems as if all my bridges have been burned,
You say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
It’s not the long walk home that will change this heart,
But the welcome I receive at the restart
The darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
The darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
The darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
Stars hide your fires,
And these here are my desires
And I will give them up to you this time around
And so, I’ll be found with my steak stuck in this ground
Marking its territory of this newly impassioned soul
But you, you’ve come too far this time
You have neither reason nor rhyme
With which to take this soul that is so rightfully mine



Fuck was I - Jenny Owen Youngs

over a year has gone by since i've visited myopera. I feel like i've neglected it, so i'm going to try and make up for it. And what better way to do than...My new favorite song!

Things that are wrong with me...

according to me, my friends and a few medical professionals...

1. I steal pens from my bishop...and other authorities...i honestly don't think i've bought a pen in the last like...5 years?
2. I like to spit on hot metal...it's awesome
3. I like to superglue things to other things...like people to other people...people to toilet seats...lol ask pinkwaterbug...bigsmile
4. I like to get hot lightbulbs wet...they explode devil
5. I am absolutely terrified of the crypt keeper...
6. I think i suffer from memory loss...but i can't remember...rolleyes
7. I think if i grew out my leg hair...i could braid it...
8. Same goes for armpits...but due to a very VERY disturbing commercial...i'm NOT going there...
9. I collect shoelaces!!
10. I like to stare at people and cause them extreme discomfort...lmao...whoo...that was a good time..
11. I consider most of these things a talent...

...there's more...i think...hell i don't know...

Anberlin- Fin

Feels like you're miles from here,
In other towns with lesser names.
Where the unholy ghost doesn't tell
Mary or William exactly what they want to hear.
You remember the house on Ridge Road
Told you and the Devil to both just leave me alone.
If this is salvation, I can show you the trembling.
You'll just have to trust me. I'm scared.

I am the patron saint of lost causes.
Aren't we all to you just near lost causes?
Aren't we all to you just lost

Tommy, you left behind
Something that will mean everything right before you die.
What if you gained the whole world?
You've already lost four little souls from your life.
Widows and orphans aren't hard to find.
They're home missing daddy who's saving the abandoned tonight.
Wish your drinking would hurry and kill you.
Sympathy's better than having to tell you the truth.

That you are the patron saint of lost causes.
All you are to them is now a lost cause.
All you are to them is now, causes.

Billy, don't you understand?
Timothy stood as long as he could and now
You made his faith disappear.
More like a magician and less like a man of the cloth.
We're not questioning God.
Just those he chose to carry on His cross.
We're no better, you'll see.
Just all of us, the lost causes.

Aren't we all to you just lost causes?
Are we all to you lost?
Lost causes
So all we are to you,
Is all we are, is all we are
All we are is all we are

[Choir:]
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you? (Lost causes, all we are is all we are)
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you? (To you, lost...)

Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?


Take what you will, what you will
And leave. Could you kill, could you kill me
If the world was on fire
And nothing was left but hope or desire
And take all that I could bring forth, is this hell
Or am I on the floor over-desperate?
Hold hands streaming of blood again?
And then take full weight of me
Guard my dreams, figure this out,
It's me on my own. Helpless, hurting, hell
Will you stay strong as you promised?
Cause I'm stranded and bare.
Meanness is washed up in all that I am
Is God. Take this and all,
Then grace takes me to a place
Of the father you never had
Ripping and breaking and tearing apart
This is not heaven
This is my hell.

Somewhere Safe

I hear the screams outside my door, the threats to leave once more

It's raining outside...
I want to run away to a better place
where i can stay without fear, without hate...
just somewhere safe

That's when I saw his face, against the rain, just a little boy crying again

It's raining outside...
He wants to run a way to a better place
where he can stay without fear, without hate...
just somewhere safe

I'm outside my front door staring down the street, a hundred kids waiting...waiting to leave

Can we run a way, to a better place
where there's no more figting, no more hate
Is there somewhere safe?
for us to hide our fear?
anyone who cares to wipe away our tears?
Where the grass is green and this grey world is gone...
is there anywhere...anywhere we can run?
Is there anywhere...anywhere we could run?

The rain falls down the windo, tears fall down my face...

Longing for somewhere, somewhere safe.

Union Square- Deciet

the way you...

The way you say my name...makes me want to forget it.

The way you grab my arm...makes me want to cut it off.

The way you laugh at me...makes me want to call you names.

The way you look in my direction...makes me want to glance away.

The way you're always there...makes me want to forget...
The way you used to be...makes me almost repeat...the way i used to say your name...
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I Never Promised You A Rose Garden

"I never promised you a rose garden. I never promised you perfect justice . . . and I never promised you peace of happiness. My help is so that you can be free to fight for all of those things. The only reality I offer is challenge, and being well is being free to accept it or not at whatever level you are capable. I never promise lies, and the rose-garden world of perfection is a lie . . .”[/SIZE][/COLOR][/FONT]

MY NEW FAVORITE SONG!!

ignore the intro...somebody else made the video...i just copied and pasted it...lol, also the end note...XD

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