My Operaconfessions.. confusions..
Monday, February 7, 2011 4:27:45 AM
what am i doing here?
im sitting in front of Suzzie, typing words unclear to me..
telling the secrets of my heart..
its February, the month of love as they say..
celebrating St. Valentine's day..
but do all people celebrates?
of course not,
especially to those relatives of the victims of St. Valentine's massacre..
those who have lost their loved ones,
those who have broken family and separated from their beloved friends..
many people say that Feb 14th is a romantic day to be celebrated
but i dont want to mark the day just to celebrate a "love day" just once a year.
i usually spent Valentine's Day without someone with me.
just hanging outside..
waiting time fly by..
yes, i have ex lovers but i dont know why every Valentine's Day i am alone..
maybe i dont deserve them..
before i go, let this letter fill you..
hmmmm..
baby, i dont know when will i see you..
i dont know when will i spend a single day with my head on your shoulder..
every morning i think of you,
every moment i ask myself what are you doing?
if youre okay, how are you feeling..
you make my mind wandering every second of everyday..
now, im "trying" to keep quiet of what im feeling,
i dont know if this is right anymore..
so i keep my lips shut,
my eyes blurred,
i dont want to see you cry when she leaves you,
i dont want to hurt any of you..
do i have the right love at the wrong time?
im stuck on you
but i am happy to love you..
you may think ive forgotten you,
that im keeping a distance but you know i cant do that..
i love you and i dont have plans of staying away..
i will wait.. i will.
babe
this is what i’m begging..
can i be the only woman who stay with you and holds your hands
my significant thing is you.
i’m afraid that you would leave.
i wouldn’t let you go.
how can i keep you this way?
how can i?
i know i can but will you be strong enough to leave them and not me?
(60%)
Adonis @ my.opera /friendspartyworldAdonisali # Monday, February 7, 2011 8:42:38 AM
Moonlite Jamaicajamaicaolinarez # Monday, February 7, 2011 9:04:11 AM
but worth what?
oh! you feel the same! tsk! dont be like me!
Adonis @ my.opera /friendspartyworldAdonisali # Monday, February 7, 2011 9:41:04 AM
Moonlite Jamaicajamaicaolinarez # Monday, February 7, 2011 1:07:41 PM
Adonis @ my.opera /friendspartyworldAdonisali # Monday, February 7, 2011 1:12:35 PM
i have been called a narcistic but what did i do wrong.
Moonlite Jamaicajamaicaolinarez # Monday, February 7, 2011 4:30:32 PM
WesleyBoytjy # Wednesday, February 9, 2011 6:07:22 PM
Life could you be more gentle to me. Yeah I know this is a selfish plea,Comon Christ lay the beauty of woman on my flesh for me But this world is hard, It's cruel and I wish it could be... Softer to me I'm still alive. That much is true I've never lied, well, I guess I've told a few. There's nothing to see I myself lay the emphasis on the evidence Begging for the proof Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth nothing to show. The conversation got too deep, I shrug to tell you I' don't know. This life can get so hard, this world can be so cruel, Sometimes I fall apart I feel just like a useless tool.
Adonis @ my.opera /friendspartyworldAdonisali # Monday, March 14, 2011 2:38:28 AM