My Heart is here...

There are some selected parts of my past , I intentionally lock them deeply in my heart. I thought they would silently stay there and nothing could wake them up but...I was wrong. They themselves can revive w/o any outside impact. They restore fully on their own at my losing moments and again hurt me as they did. I may have to learn how to be familiar with a living in the world where the past and the present coexist as a whole.

I am not a great person at all but I never stop wanna be. In that sense, am I really always pushing me upward ? and suddenly, the past catches me up then beat me off. Eventually, I ain't hit it big in the game of life.