Pahina....

okay, the latest technological development not only on the Engelhardt's household but also by the Wolfs is the Wii Sport!!!! And yes people, we are doing three dimensional sport activities with our alter egos in the wide screen television. the thing is, its addicting!!! once you set your highest score, you want to beat it again. and again. and again. and more!!!!

we got ours just last friday, the 2nd of january. why? because we did have lots of fun during the silvester (31st) party by the Wolfs doing boxing, baseball and super hulahoop!! and after that the next day we all have body and muscle pains.

its fun. i never thought my hubby would get indulge with it as well. the only thing that we still lack is the the fit board which was sold out before christmas. everybody wants to lose the too much extra pounds gained during the holiday season and winter time.

in the mean time i need to get back to my school work. i had my workout for the day...

so if you are the type who wouldn't want to go to the studio..Wii Sport and Wii Fit is a nice thing!!!

The few days my bestfriend spent with me was amazing. We both had a lot of fun. We also had so much reminiscing on our lives.. past lives. To be honest, I am the most insecure person in our group. Influenced by a comment from a friend, wont mention her name, that during our college days she said I only mingle with my Girlfriends to be branded like them..namely, intelligent, beautiful and sophisticated. That strucked in my head eversince until now.

I admit I am not pretty. Though some people would actually say the contrary. My self-confidence is perhaps just overflowing that they believe I am pretty. Nevertheless, I do not really consider my self physically pretty. I am just your ordinary girl next door. But atleats I could say I am sexy. That I will firmly insist. It is not that it just happen, I’ve worked hard for it and stilll working hard to maintain it. I am not a gym junkie though. And the fact that I am really into clothes and shoes…..just like every single woman in this planet. My style depends on my mood. I dont dress up just because everybody does. It took years before I really developed my own style and elegance. And we mature.

Certain things are a no-no when you get out of your teenage years. I tried to cultivate myself by learning another language, which i am so proud off. I’ve widened my horizon too. One way to do that is to study abroad. Hmmm, you see I am still a student til now. I still have atleast a year and a half before I could get my German diploma. And the university where I am enrolled in is not just your ordinary university. Here they teach, mold and force us to be scholars and academics. The books I read where not our typical accounting books before. Not even the management and organization literature are comparable. It is not Harvard sure, but it belongs to the one of the best private school in Germany now. It has earned its reputation. A well deserve reputation. And i am just so proud to be able to study here.

But its not just that. My bestfriend and I had been talking about old flames and crushes too. Yeah, its kinda sad reminiscing those times. Some were embarassing and some are just frustrating. I never really had a good time with suitors and things like that back then. People are just so discriminating and mean. They assess your value on the labels of your clothes and shoes. They are very materialistic. I can’t blame my father if he really did not want to go abroad. Actually I am thankful that he didn’t. Atleast my family until now, regardless of all the hardships we encountered, is still together. I am happy the way I or my sister ended up. We’re not rich or affluent but we are enjoying our lives and that’s the most important about it.

Funny how my last name has influenced the reaction of those people who used to be proud and arrogant. They dont even recognizes me. More often I need to tell them my maiden name and where I lived. I dont know, have I change that much physically? I dont think so. I still looked the same, except perhaps there’s a little sophistication in there? hmmmm well, i cant tell. But for me, I am still the old me.

And so, looking back…my besfriend said, I could tell those people who arrogantly discriminated me ( i wont enumerate or name them at all) EAT YOUR HEART OUT…. hard but its true. Yet still I do not really want to tell them that. I am happy that I am blessed with all these wonderful things that came my way. Perhaps without these people I wouldnt be here at all. Nor I should thank them as they weren’t of big help either.

This phrase, I keep to myself…to keep me going. It helps a lot to boost your drowned confidence. But what the heck. I have a goodlooking, loving, caring, understanding and so-crazy over me husband. We have life that is not poor, nor are we rich but we can have what we want. My family is still there supporting and loving me. I've met many people, learned a lot from them. I gained new friens. I've widened my horizon. I got a super loving and caring in-laws, whatelse should I ask for?

Sometimes too much is also not good. So i’d rather be grateful and happy with what i am blessed. Eat your heart out? That depends on you.

i am a coffee junkie. yes, i drown myself with caffein which is, well let's say half bad, half good for the health. although that has not been proven yet, because both are very complicated to prove. symptoms or effects are different to every consumer. nevertheless, it doesnt stop me in taking this drink. i just love it and its different ways of preparing it. besides coffee break is a tradition, not just in europe but all over the world.

so i thought that i was able to reduce my consume due to my hyperacidity. but since i was back to studying, i've been drowning myself with caffein again. i take almost a liter and a half coffee a day, depending on how long i am faced with books and notes. its not really good, i know that's why i try to balance it with nutritious and balance diet. yes, you're reading it right, i am talking about healthy eating. i am trying to hold on this program as well because i dont want to get sick. i want to finish all my due homework at the same time enjoy the good weather or what's left of it.

cold winter is knocking at my door. warm pullovers and jackets are not enough. i need to strenghten my immune system so its not just me, but my beloved better half is supporting me. yet still i have to reduce my caffein consume so green tea is an alternative. its not just good for the digestive system, its also good for the nerves. it calms down. just what i need most.

in this cold days, i can rely not just with my healthy balance diet but as well as the love and care of my hubby...and of course coffee and tea.!!! hmmmm

its windy outside, the sun is setting down...a cup of tea? or coffee? anyone?

i look outside the window and see the sky. instead of a blue clear sky, its cloudy and gray. the breeze is cold, chilly and wet. summer has left.

i hate this time of year. the forest may still be green and full of leaves but it is the time of year when fall begins. when the sky turns gray most of the day because of fog or cloud rains and it is then time to bring those wool sweaters and jackets.

it is now when the daylight is very short and night is too long. when i long to sleep and do nothing at all. it may sound like a bear's life but indeed that's how i feel. i used to love rain but only when its warm. is it possible you may ask? yes indeed. growing up in a tropical country wherein the temperature still strikes 30degrees even it if its raining.

if im scared of winter? perhaps..i hate it when its cold. i dont feel comfortable at all. you need to wear too much to keep yourself warm. ah i wish i could go home this time of year but i cant. i have to get through this rough cold time.

could somebody bring me warmth and sunshine???

well...tomorrow is the final day. its the last day of hmmmmmm. looking back it wasn't all that bad. there were days that i couldnt really bear it but other than that it was also fun. to be honest, its a good source of income. you meet a lot of people. i think the most important thing is that i was able to atleast make connections. i met a number of business people whom i could turn to after finishing my studies.

also i made new friends. although it is difficult in this society to really find friends, there were good relationships established that i am hoping would really flourish into a lifetime friendship. i am very much aware that in this kind of society where everyone thinks of his/her own welfare that friendship is always measured with money and power. that once one help rendered it should paid back at whatever price and possibilities.

well...anyway. nonetheless i am ready to begin a new phase in my life. and i hope this time i will really hit it right.

til next...