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I was once a backslider who is trying to prove that I can stand alone without God. But I was wrong I do need God. I've been trying to resist Him and avoiding all the circumstances that I may face Him. But until one day that He let me feel that He is not around anymore. It feels like that no one is around to help you. No one would care if you die. No one would care if you will be lost. It seems that I was the only one in this world that time. So lonely, very lonely feeling that even your family is not there to talked with nor you can see them. But still I have the resistance of the fact that I am alone. No wonder my life is not going anywhere. No job, No family, No love, just nothing. It's just like a stone waiting to be thrown somewhere. Until that sudden feeling of extreme loneliness that I cried out for God to forgive me and my sins. I was crying like a baby, I prayed to God solemnly and with all the sincerity that I can give. I'm glad that after that day I felt a brand new me. Good things come within the coming days. I realized that I really need God.