before they were silver we were gold

I have really let my art slip recently. havn't done much work at all.things are fucked atm everything is changing yet again, just when i was getting comfortable. i dont know where i stand with alot of things and people right now. safe to say im struggling a little bit. but things could be worse, much worse.i need to get a check on my emotions because they are running fucking wild and making me feel unsteady. i need total hink like i used too, logically. its not as fun, or intense in alot of ways, but that way i never leave my self short. of anything g. i want to know where eve is, my imagination has been fucking with me all night making me unsure and untrusting. which is a bad place to be at. even the drugs are no longer helping me to ignore it all, and im putting all my happiness in the hands of one person. shes a great person, and i love her. but still, she is a human, and the risk i am taking is huge. but she is too, the only difference being i dont know for sure how much she banks on us. but i guess thats why i need trust... and i do trust her deep down. i just dont have any faith left in the human race..i love her so much
well bye for now