before they were silver we were gold

so im starting my new work placement today, and am actually there now. we are having to wait for another kid who is starting but missed the bus. im not nervous or anything, my only worries being that im going to struggle a bit because i have like two cigerretes and the only money i have is my busfare for tomorrow. and i dont get paid for 8 days..wish i had a packlunch or something. i really need this job though, so i need to impress the guys here and show them that i am a hard worker. i have been getting this wierd pain in my neck and shoulder all morning, havnt had it before and it feels strange. having muscle spasms and that aswell! dont feel to healthy..but i do feel good overall, kinda excited in a bored sort of way. just hope this all goes well. it is going to be hard for me getting o next week have to get the 6.45 bus! i was up at 7 today and i thought that was early!! will have to go to bed really really early on tuesday. shit crack. next wednesday is my payday aswell. i hope these bastards re-inburse my busfares asap! i have things i must get for people etc.. god 8 till half 4..thems long days for me, really long. this is going oone hell of a challenge but y'know what? im fuckin up for it homie! bring it on haha ive been wanting a challenge for weeks anyway. hope i can hang out with eve tonight, dont know how its going to work out as her phone is broke and im not sure what time it is i finish today. goddamn, i just wish i had some fucking clarity. i need to make a proper plan tonight and get my head together. its all over the place and i want to get my shit in order, regimented. supervisor is here now, so im going to have to go, bye for now you silent fuckin masses.