Too much pressure!!! Too much pressure!!!

It's been ages since I was worried about things outside myself at all.
I go to work, I enjoy it and then I come back home and switch off my brain... I don't think about what has happened, I simply leave it all behind. I get happy moments, I get frustrated, I have my second life at work and still... I don't mix it with my first one.

And somehow - this isn't hard...

I have got these two separated now - althoough I wouldn't mind if somehow people that I work with became part of my private life - and then - it would not mix my worlds anyway. I think I am developing special power - super-mega-multi-tasking (as opposed to normal multi tasking, which all women are very familiar with).

This does not help me though with deciding what my priorities are. What do I want to do with my life, what to gain, what am i willing to loose to develop myself into the next stage... These uestions are still ongoing and it's hard for me to even think about the answers - I simply don't know...




A for today - i am not ready for any more responsibilities, I only just started breathing evenly through my life and i want to leave myself at this stage for a moment if that's possible.
This is pretty weird as I noticed I usually wanted for something big to happen, I was living from one big venue to another, passing the life in between, forgetting to live, not just be there, on the way.
I stopped this. And I am going to listen to myself and then decide what I want to happen next...