Pensieve

I am a devout reader of the Psychologies Magazine and this month I read something that struck me. The online article about the matter can be found here:

http://psychologies.co.uk/self/what-do-you-do-when-you-want-to-do-everything/


We all think a clear path is required of us. We believe that we need to know exactly what our life aspirations are and what we want to achieve, we have a clear imagine of our life in thirty years time.
It seems that some (or maybe many?!?) people are struggling with it, thinking they are lacking the "purpose", that it is wrong they don't have the "calling".

It turns out, not everyone can easily get past the initial stage that has been drawn in so many self-help career books ("specify your passions, then [we will] tell you how to make them reality").
I often envy people who knew clearly from the beginning that they wanted to be a doctor, a violin player (hello sister), a programmer (hello brother), but now I know that having my finger in (too) many pies does not mean I am lazy, not-committed or lack focus.

In fact I have noticed that if/when I am doing something I am always trying to give it that 101%, as I really enjoy making things happen and seeing my goals accomplished fully. But it doesn't have to mean everything I do is of major interest to me, nor it have to mean I will only deal with things that I enjoy doing.

Some time ago, when I first created a social network account, I wasn't sure what to enter under the "About you" bit, and I remember typing: "knowing everything about everything"... At the time it seemed like I didn't really have anything to enter, but now I see that this is how I function as a human being.

The article refers to the people that can't choose their path and can't really specify their life purpose as Scanners.
Scanners - people who don't specialise in one area, who won't necessarily understand the love for work and/or hobby that others feel. But on the other hand, people who have less problems seeing a bigger picture, as they don't "dive in" the tasks and situations in their lives fully.

I don't mean to say that Scanners do not commit, as I can vouch for myself that I can't leave things unfinished and, when need be, I WILL complete any task well. As I see it, it simply means that I am not losing myself in only one aspect of my life. I want/need to try different things, attempt many little projects at a time. I get pleasure from business and strive on knowledge.

I guess this explains why I am working as a programmer, singing is my hobby and in my spare time I read psychological articles... and have problems falling asleep at night, contemplating the meaning of life and artificial intelligence.

Oh... and I forgot about the cross-stitching