Too much pressure!!! Too much pressure!!!

This was my first time at the meditation session.
I decided to take new approach of the mind management.
I am not looking for a religion, I am not looking for an explanation of where we're from and what this life is going to turn out like. I just need some peace of mind.

I would like to be able to cut off my body when it hurts, to close myself down to unpleasant people, to concentrate on finding peace and happyness within me and stop reaching out for factors outside and expect them to make my day...

I would like to believem, that every cause has got reflecting effect. That doing good, brings good, doing bad brings bad upon us.
And I have noticed that some time ago. even if I think my frustration, anger etc. will not affect anyone, it always comes back to my life. Very often doubled in it's power...
How good would it be to not even let it out to the world.
How good would it be to be able to stop the bad we receive from others.
How good would it be not to reflect it futher adding strength to it...

Am I capable?



PS. New Opera looks cool, but where are the profile pictures of my friends?