My OperaBeginning of all things to end
Thursday, July 13, 2006 10:55:50 AM
I remember going to school........rather being forced to goto school. Pretty much the case with any other person I suppose. All I had on my mind back then was getting good marks, making the parents happy and having some fun. I never asked why I was going to school in the first place. I suppose now, I would get a reply that goes something like this - "Education is a basic necessity for any human being. You go to school to increase your knowledge which helps you to deal with life. Its a very competitive world out there. You need to make money and money brings respect which brings friends, thus allowing you to live happily. An education provides you with the basic tools to...Blablabla".....I subconsciously went with the plan to become a "well rounded personality who is a worthy addition to society"......brainwash.....damn tv...damn big city......now I realise........like a donkey fueled to go forward by a carrot dangling just out of reach. To hell with the carrot I say. I want to take a dip in the lake. Get the F#$% off my back!!!!
Dream big everybody says. No one gives a valid reason for doing so. "Because you can!" . Sure as hell I can. But do I want to do it? Whats the use? I dont see any purpose in trying to achieve something.....main motive being to show off your abilities. Basic human need for attention, love......damn emotions. Why not just go where the river takes you? If only I could......possible but improbable......because the river is full of rapids and my small rowboat is nowhere its match. Damn big city....No purpose for this whole stinking mindF#@$ mental bullshit affectiontely called "life". I might be wrong.
Maybe thats all there is to "life". Getting a respected(read cushy) job, making a contribution to the gene pool and then dying at a ripe old age (In other words, satisfying the basic needs - food, shelter, reproduction....feed, reproduce, die.....preprogrammed.....genetic code.....damn system....screw the system). Doesnt sound like much to me. Looks like everybody is out to get the same thing. Or maye its just me.....too much tv perhaps. But everywhere I turn, I see people wanting to live out their dream lives, happy, nice job, a husband\wife, kids, a nice house, a car, the works......urging me to do the same. Or maybe, its still me....damn tv....damn brainwash........
And what just is the point of this rant? I have no clue....a bunch of nagging thoughts......a feeling of running away from the system......disowning, divorcing everything.......now I understand those monk dudes(not much though.......still think of sex every 10 minutes). 'Individual' is a grave mistake of a term for a person living in a society.....every society has a certain characteristic set that the members(if thats the right term) aspire for and work towards it(big dream)....poison is insecurity..... makes you a slave to the wheel....consciously or not.......greed comes from insecurity.....desire probably has the same roots.
"I thought what Id do was Id pretend I was one of those deaf mutes" - J.D.Salinger
Everything is inconsequential to you once youre rotting in your grave. Hardwork? Perseverence? Dreams?Ha....all a big joke. "...a big cosmic joke and I dont get the punchline" - Slipknot
What the f@#k is this? Am I really alive? Is this a dream? What the hell is a dream then?
Times like this, I find comfort in cowboy bebop...........
Thank you for your time wasted here which could otherwise be spent doing something worthwhile, like, climbing up the ladder of life.........hahahahahahahahahahahaha....lord...now thats a joke I can dig!!
No. Im not on drugs.
Dream big everybody says. No one gives a valid reason for doing so. "Because you can!" . Sure as hell I can. But do I want to do it? Whats the use? I dont see any purpose in trying to achieve something.....main motive being to show off your abilities. Basic human need for attention, love......damn emotions. Why not just go where the river takes you? If only I could......possible but improbable......because the river is full of rapids and my small rowboat is nowhere its match. Damn big city....No purpose for this whole stinking mindF#@$ mental bullshit affectiontely called "life". I might be wrong.
Maybe thats all there is to "life". Getting a respected(read cushy) job, making a contribution to the gene pool and then dying at a ripe old age (In other words, satisfying the basic needs - food, shelter, reproduction....feed, reproduce, die.....preprogrammed.....genetic code.....damn system....screw the system). Doesnt sound like much to me. Looks like everybody is out to get the same thing. Or maye its just me.....too much tv perhaps. But everywhere I turn, I see people wanting to live out their dream lives, happy, nice job, a husband\wife, kids, a nice house, a car, the works......urging me to do the same. Or maybe, its still me....damn tv....damn brainwash........
And what just is the point of this rant? I have no clue....a bunch of nagging thoughts......a feeling of running away from the system......disowning, divorcing everything.......now I understand those monk dudes(not much though.......still think of sex every 10 minutes). 'Individual' is a grave mistake of a term for a person living in a society.....every society has a certain characteristic set that the members(if thats the right term) aspire for and work towards it(big dream)....poison is insecurity..... makes you a slave to the wheel....consciously or not.......greed comes from insecurity.....desire probably has the same roots.
"I thought what Id do was Id pretend I was one of those deaf mutes" - J.D.Salinger
Everything is inconsequential to you once youre rotting in your grave. Hardwork? Perseverence? Dreams?Ha....all a big joke. "...a big cosmic joke and I dont get the punchline" - Slipknot
What the f@#k is this? Am I really alive? Is this a dream? What the hell is a dream then?
Times like this, I find comfort in cowboy bebop...........
Thank you for your time wasted here which could otherwise be spent doing something worthwhile, like, climbing up the ladder of life.........hahahahahahahahahahahaha....lord...now thats a joke I can dig!!
No. Im not on drugs.
