Observer

Sarah's comment to write something and then her post about birth-month, made me thinking.

It is true I am easily hurt. I like people and I trust them easily. But sometime I find that if someone avoids me, that HURTS me most. I dont know the reason for that. Today such thing happend and I was devasted.

After such thing happens to me, I become childish and decide not to talk with the person who hurts me, then again after few days I am normal. Is it some sort of insecurity? Why I feel vunrable? Why I can't be strong like other people?

I am afraid of losing people, I am easil hurt, that lead me to be aloof, I live in my own cocoon. Afraid of coming out, and that makes many things unexplored.

My concealed identity in my blogs is one of the reason. I am afraid if I disclose myself, I will become vulnerable. I know you might find it amusing, but that is true.

For that reason, I never get intimate in any relation and keep distance. I know I have lost ,or never gained to be honest, much frinends. I have become wanderer in life.

I know if I can overcome with this 'problem' I can taste the life more sweetly. And I know I will, have to, overcome this.

This is the fact, a bitter one, of my life.

Peace.....