“We lost because we told ourselves we lost” - Tolstoy.

some days ago, I asked myself, "what might be my biggest fear??? ". Losing was is and will be my biggest

fear in my life time. I wandered why i am thinking like this and is my intentions to myself. Well its a

fair game to know yourself it answered. I was subjected to a series of thoughts since i felt i have been

a loner for awhile, keeping away myself from the mainstream where life flows. Even till date i could not

answer myself. I always had a strange stigma and a kind of like towards being quite and simple.

I have been a good student all together in my school , college and well good at

sports too. But always was at the time of test, even though confident i was mobbed by biggest fear of

losing to some one or falling short of my targets. It was rare but the fear was there; till now i

couldn't figure out WHY SO ? is it common with everyone or me the odd one.

however i battle it out and come with sensibly from my greatest of fear. If someone has this kind of

enigma going in his or her conscious then there is nothing to worry, because its not the fear but it is

extra effort of consciousness that keeps you in the competition. Sometimes if not taken care it will

lead you to canny paths ending no where.


For me the realization goes in the direction of keeping me in the race while i don't wish for it to be a

vice-versa