kalynka

Weird..

Thursday, May 28, 2009 2:59:35 AM

... I don't sleep at night feeling guilty for hurting the feelings of the person who showed so little care for me.
And I want him back into my life, although we were catching hell, trying to work out our relationships and never succeeded to do so

I completely don't understand myself...

What am I- a masochist or a conformist

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Angelikiellinidata # Thursday, May 28, 2009 3:12:16 AM

Just a lovely girl with dreams ... sometimes letting a dream go it is the hardest of all! Do what you feel is the right thing for Alla not for him

Good Luck !

kalynka # Thursday, May 28, 2009 3:13:54 AM

Thank you

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The problem is that I'm about to ask for forgiveness for everything I have NOT done, just to feel better

Angelikiellinidata # Thursday, May 28, 2009 3:16:38 AM

before you do that,
go infront of your mirror cross your hands on you chest to a hug and tell yourself "I am worthy".Then do what your heart tells you..

KarenNerak # Thursday, May 28, 2009 3:24:26 AM

You're neither of those things. You're a beautiful girl with a wonderful head on her shoulders. Love hurts worse than any physical pain I've felt...and I've had two kids.

I know it hurts right now...badly, but time will help you to get passed it enough to be able to sleep and feel good again. I love you!

Darkogdare # Thursday, May 28, 2009 4:35:12 AM

There is a beautiful book written by Shel Silverstein "The Missing Piece". It tells a lot about us on a personal level yet written so simply.

"Oh, I'm lookin' for my missin' piece
I'm lookin' for my missin' piece
Hi-dee-ho, here I go
lookin' for my missin' piece"

H82typ # Thursday, May 28, 2009 5:39:53 AM

I love that guy! Darko, I'm impressed!

Alla, think it over. Why do you feel guilty? Both the ladies make sense, maybe your hearts compass needs adjusting. *hug*

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 6:13:47 AM

Allish, don't follow your heart on this one. You don't have to apologise for anything. You have done nothing wrong. You need to move on without feeling guilty. You don't have to apologise at all. Why you feel guilty? I think it all originates from the time when Eve offered Adam the forbidden apple...since then women have been carrying the guilty-feeling.

KarenNerak # Thursday, May 28, 2009 6:48:18 AM

I love that guy, too!!! Shel Silverstein was the man!

Kerstin - I know we don't talk much, but wow. I'd never thought of it like that before. I have an intense problem with guilt and you just put it in a new perspective for me. Thank you!

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 6:54:26 AM

Hello Karen! Shouldn't you be asleep?

I'm up working on a PPP, before I take off to uni.
You know what? I have an intense problem with guilt too. I wonder how many women don't. The only thing we can do, is to try to be colder...not overanalyze everything, cause that's when we are brought down. (This sentences can be a mixture of swedish and english=swenglish, just warning you.

)

Allish, I've been thinking why you (the majority of women) have guilt-feelings. Could it be because you don't feel worthy of a much better man?

KarenNerak # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:00:52 AM

Me? Sleep? What's that?!

It sucks that so many people are plagued with guilt. Meh! It's just such a horrible feeling to have ALL THE TIME.

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:03:42 AM

I want to sleep at this moment...but..but..I have to do my work since I decided to go out to party yesterday

Originally posted by Nerak:

It sucks that so many people are plagued with guilt. Meh! It's just such a horrible feeling to have ALL THE TIME

That's why we have to work on removing our guilt from our behaviours. It's difficult, but we have to work on it. We can't go around being troubled by things which we should not even take under consideration.

H82typ # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:55:38 AM

@ Swenglish... *hugs*

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:56:57 AM

What's funny?

H82typ # Thursday, May 28, 2009 11:12:03 AM

The word!

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 11:20:14 AM

Oh...but you know..In Sweden we use a lot of swenglish!

Even when we are supposed to speak English...we make swedish words english...or the order of the wordings are englishfied or swedishified!

KarenNerak # Thursday, May 28, 2009 5:06:17 PM

That's true, Kerstin...but I've always been plagued by it, so trying to change it now that I'm 35 seems nearly impossible. It's NOT impossible...just feels like it.

Stomyr # Thursday, May 28, 2009 5:33:07 PM

Neither - you are you, and you are good as you are.

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 5:34:26 PM

Well..you better start removing all the thinking about the feeling that it's nearly impossible. I know that it's difficult...but...we have to start thinking positively about it.

KarenNerak # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:04:36 PM

Very true. I suppose it's a matter of perception. If I think I'm a piece of crap, then that's how I will act. However, if I think I'm worthy, then I will be worthy.

Thank you for the pep talk! You pwn!

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:28:24 PM

night wolf # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:35:24 PM

YOU!? masochist or a conformist?! No God damn way in hell!!

there isn't enough real men for real women !

Why in God's name apologize for something you have not done?
And why stick with only one when you can have fun with more than one friend's ..until the "ONE" is found

spit on him and slap him! and say : Amir said you'r not a man! And tell him I'M A Persian Pride Gangster!

shit! I'm scaring myself here!!

Mizz MartínezMizzMartinez # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:45:55 PM

GO Amir GO!

night wolf # Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:55:08 PM

YEAH!

There is a Persian say : Friend's are closer than your brother or sister"As a soul mate" My love go's far beyond Love , couse it's Friend's love

kalynka # Saturday, May 30, 2009 9:01:46 PM

Thank you all for the comments

!
Darko, I have to read that book!

Everybody know the man exept me

I haven't apologised yet...he deleted me from icq right away...I know his number but something's stopping me...is that my pride

?

It's very complicated, the guilt and, you know the feeling when you realize that you just can't be with a person but at the same time it's not the same without him...

KarenNerak # Sunday, May 31, 2009 10:19:19 AM

Originally posted by kalynka:

...the feeling when you realize that you just can't be with a person but at the same time it's not the same without him.

I know that feeling all too well. In the long-run, it will all be for the better. If only you could fast forward a little bit into the future so you could bypass all of these negative feelings you're filled with right now.

kalynka # Sunday, May 31, 2009 10:25:13 AM

Yes, I value time so much but in such moments, I wouln't mind to fast forward...or at least to take a peak into the future and see a happy unbothered me

KarenNerak # Sunday, May 31, 2009 10:26:27 AM

I would love to see that as well!

kalynka # Sunday, May 31, 2009 10:28:14 AM

KYrenKYren # Monday, March 7, 2011 6:13:08 AM

I craved for her, spent sleepless nights thinking about her, not a day spent not having a though about her crossing the mind. I couldn't control what I was going through. So I tried my best to have her into my life. But Romeos are born to die without their Juliets.
I was brought up on the stories of Rama, the god, a one-woman-man who loved only Sita. I had forgotten Krishna.
But now I know in real life every girl has had more than one boyfriend. And the more pathetically a guy Is in love with a girl the more chances are that he'll lose her. The more non sympathetic a guy toward a girl, the more chance he has with her.
It's a lot better to be a playboy, a 007, for whom there's no such thing as love, there's only passion. The pain that obsession called love brings is better avoided by remembering that it's just a chemistry in the mind, it's just a play of dopamin and oxitocin.
More importantly die keeping a gun with you, so that when you meet god, you can put a bullet into his head for making the apple tree in the first place, he might not die, but he'll understand how you felt when you lived on the earth.

night wolf # Tuesday, March 29, 2011 5:49:06 AM

Holy Crap!!! that's how the F#%$K i feel !!!
the more you treat them as crap!! the more they like you!!...
there are exceptions though ... WTH is this world coming to?

the more i want something/someone... the more i get away from it!! ...

we need a new strategy

kalynka # Tuesday, March 29, 2011 5:18:03 PM

Bla bla bla

That only mean you choose them wrong, Amirio

night wolf # Saturday, April 2, 2011 9:46:50 AM

DAMN!!!!

H82typ # Saturday, April 2, 2011 1:25:10 PM

She's so smart!

kalynka # Saturday, April 2, 2011 8:13:27 PM

KYrenKYren # Sunday, April 3, 2011 5:44:52 AM

Yeah, she is. That means I had chosen the right one and I needed to choose a right strategy. Maybe in the next life. Till then let her cry over some south africans, argentines or whatever country it is.

kalynka # Sunday, April 3, 2011 8:36:30 AM

If you mean that the wrong strategy was to be born Kiran then yes you're right.
And wait a minute, since then is it a shame to cry over lovers? Hahaha, relax, I'm the happiest person on earth in the past 2 years

night wolf # Sunday, April 3, 2011 9:45:23 AM

True love begins when nothing is looked for in return.

kalynka # Sunday, April 3, 2011 11:57:58 AM

Hmmm...

H82typ # Sunday, April 3, 2011 2:47:11 PM

Interesting thought...

night wolf # Thursday, April 7, 2011 9:35:53 AM

surly...

kalynka # Thursday, April 7, 2011 12:11:01 PM

Damn, we gotta quit that smoking!

KYrenKYren # Thursday, April 7, 2011 1:32:39 PM

I am really happy to hear that, Alla. All the best for your future life.
I would have felt better if it was me you were happy with. I am not a saint to not to want anything, you know. But still all the best.
Yes , it was me who chose to be born as Kiran.

night wolf # Friday, April 8, 2011 3:51:08 PM