This is my soul,..

I read my friend's blog .wait... she's been my friends for nearly 4 yrs, but we've got close to each other for abt more than 2yrs , I remember.U know, she used to talk everything with me, wander around the street just for fun, go for icecream when we had nothing to do....She always called me at the first place whenever she wanted to go out.U know, i did feel happy coz i love her as a sweetfriend of mine.She's such i simple girl and have a same thought like me.I used to think so.But to indeed,i didnt feel completely comfortable when i talked to her, when beside her.and i think she 's also feel that way.Of course , i wondered why it's like that.because i talked unnaturally or she found me not interesting orrr ...WHAT..I really dunt know.There 's a question which is always on my mind that "what make people feel REALLY comfortable when staying together???"Till now i cant find the answer although i try hard to share my thought with her.To tell the truth i am not good at communication >I used to hide my feeling .and i know it's not good for me, It will make me feel so lonely and hard to live.coz i know there 's one saying"People feel lonely because they build walls instead of bridge" /Thus now i'm trying day by day to build bridge.Butttt..... It seems that there 's nothing change.There 's still a gap between us.U know i meet her everyday, walking together from my home to the bus stop,and all the way to school.She is such an amusing girl, she can think of a lot of funny thing to tell me, we laugh a lot .But sometimes just silence.Now we study together at university.also with a friend whom we studied with at highschool.They 're more kute than me,more good at E than me.(u know i'm major in English as Linguistic and Literature.).Everything has changed, they 've got closer n closer day by day.at first i really feel so down,I try to ignore it and told to mysefl that it's just stuff , Dont worry.Butt Itseem that they 've become best friends and there's no gap between them.They still care for me alot,talk to me but i always feel that i'm outside and they talk to me just coz i'm what so-called friend of them.I HATE THAT.But i love them.I dunt know if it's so jealous of me or not!!!
heizzz, What i wonder is what makes that F**k gap ,it makes me cant feel really happy with them.Is that the distance in studying orr what what whatt???No , i know it's so foolish of me to think so.We cant be natural.I'm really stuck!!1hichicThat's the truth.There a lot alot of things that i cant tell in just an entry like this.But i need to be shared.What i 'm keep on trying now is to open my heart, maybe talk to her more go into her mind coz i know she want to fill that gap too.But HOW?????and WHAT.Oke I love you so much i 'll never give up .I wont ignore it anymore!!!i love myself so much too so i need to do it!!!Ajaaja fighting!!!
02. Avril Lavigne- Complicated.wma

Today is not a bad day, but not so good.This morning, I was missed by 5 buses.OMG it's too crowded.If i had been picked up ,i think i would have died of no air . .U know.i had some mistakes in typing my homework and used some strange words which my teacher didn't understand, so he gave me just 7:worried: .But i dont think he was right.I used the phrasal verb "do away with" to express an action of destroy a lawn.Ya i think that's correct.Do u think so???I gave my idea tho persuade him that i had looked it up in the dictionnary but he 's so persistant,so the result was just 7 4.me!!! It's not worth:zip:
and this evening, I came to my new E class, It's seemed more interesting than the old one.I mean about teachers,atmosphere especially the students:D .There's a 3rd year guy from BKU.Actually, he's not cool, even a little shy.But he 's in the same school with a friend of mine.A new friend whom i just got to know 3 months ago & ....hicc .He has left me special sense.I think i'm so into him.Well maybe i'll tell u about him later:love: U know, a lot of thich to say:love: .He 's just chatted with me , hixxx just buzz me, and say G9!! .I used to get so angry .U know, i online and i'm available for just 1 contact, surely that's him. I just wait 4 him just to chat with him, It will make me very happy.So look at wat he has done to me.Wat a ..... guy. I dont know how to tell about him.
Oh, i have to sleep now, it's 12.45PM