Sunday, October 10, 2010 3:31:57 PM
Just feel too tired now, just want to stop thinking, stop seeing, stop knowing... Just want to lie down, and close my eyes.
Just feel like the whole world is on my shoulder.
But I know the heavy I have is not heavier than what he has with him right now.
Things are just simple, not too complicated as I was thought, but I still cannot make it simple to me.
I don't know what should I do now, I just know, love someone is not simple as we think. And it's really painful when everything around you just concern about relationship and money. When you can out of one circle, you will step into another circle in this world. There's alot of circles waiting for you. Life is a destiny to each of us. You cannot deny, cannot stop. Always has a way for you to go, just how you want it.
Always has a way.
I'm going to take a test after a very long time no using education english. A little nervous.
Really want to see him, hug him. So far away. I know if he can, he will be in front of me right away. I know our situation now.
So funny. Sometimes people wants everything best to themselves, but never think about what the worst the other can have. Try to stop, try to make it slowly, try to get and try to do everything just believe that is best for the others, but never think if that is what they really want. Sometimes I just want to hate them so much, just ask for me to do what, to have what and to go which way is best; but never think about if that is what I want. Actually, just because I donot want them to feel unhappy, and just please other people too much will make yourself unhappy.
So tired, I really don't want to listen to anyone anymore, but ... (always but, can I stop think about how they feel?)