Kei - The Clown Master - Audience Of One

Audience Of One

Friday, May 17, 2013 4:05:18 AM

I have for the last year or so been trying to think why i can't bring myself to blog here or stay more than 10 minutes.
Was it a result of boredom or just simply a lack of time?It's neither
The fact is....I felt so alone here for a year and when i log in,there is an emptiness i feel inside my heart.
I come here and thinking my notifications would be overloaded as previous and i'll be coming on to all my crazy friends.Soon i find it's a hollow wasteland and all that remains is the hollow shells and memories of my dear friends.
It's like the apocalypse is evident and no future traces are present.
Wondering along this place looking for any surviving members of my old clan is just a painful failed search attempt.
Due to the ever so evident truth that i am now an audience of one,i became withdrawn from this site.

Here i am today,still longing for the days i can come here during all hours of the day and be greeted to my little family and their on going crazy conversations that i could easily jump into.
A harmony disrupted by none and a happiness achieved through full honest friendship.
Backgrounds,sexual orientation,religion,age,gender...none of that matter.
We span from all over the world.Japan,Vietnam,Ireland,Indonesia,England,United States,Hawaii,etc...
Our bonds exceeded acrossed the oceans and we made the best of each day.
The bullshit of a term "cyber friend"didn't cross our minds when we were with each other
We talked as if we knew each other since grade school!

We joked about each other,we shared our stories,gave advice to those needed,we fought,we cried,and the best part,everything was age appropriate so any one could join in and just have fun,be it reading or actually taking part.

I remember my blog titled "friendship" there,was the true example of our closeness and bonds.
We all exploded on that on that one post and had the opera gathering of the century!!

I can still go back and look at it and laugh as if the words were freshly planted there again.
I still feel their spirits and i will always forever cherish each and everyone of them.
The funny thing is,i even was told to promise to never leave this site(yes,you know who you are) ,therefore i promised to never leave,but she left this place and never returned!!

I do miss you my dear little sister.

Now that i am here again,knowing very well that a chapter of my life here has ended,but i won't dishonour that promise.May this blog go unread or whatever,i will write because this is my home and i grew from this place alone.
I am indeed an audience of one,but i never closed my seats off for more viewers to join me in this show.

If you ever want to befriend Kyo,i will treat you like a friend,not an online person,i won't disrespect your existence by calling you only digital elements.I will cherish your soul or i will hate your soul as real as anyone that intrigues me or angers me.
I appreciate all my current friends and i respect you all as my real friends.
My emotions are raw and i may be foolish for extending such emotions,but i don't know how to be fake.
Sorry haters.

P.S,I decided to post a drawing i did of myself with a black back drop.It's a symbol of kyo being all alone.boo hoo. -_-

Thank you all for reading
Until next time
Bai bai

StickManThe Drifter

Comments

Mei The Clowntanira1 # Friday, May 17, 2013 4:23:01 AM

you calling me hater *sigh*

blue bear with tie.

saritasaritasaralsingh # Friday, May 17, 2013 9:47:56 PM

Well all your real Opera friends are also struggling through and through I guess...that's y not able to say Hii Kyo!............but they ll remember u till the end,I promise,even your sister

You drawing is fabulous

all your friends once used to hang out here would come back either here or at ur home

who knows!

so keep ur place clean

Mei The Clowntanira1 # Saturday, May 18, 2013 12:09:46 AM

home?

he is blue bear he lives in mountain somewhere in Russia

Daneru Yuu Jindaneru # Saturday, May 18, 2013 6:20:38 AM

Kyo-san!!! My brother! While reading your post... All those memories came back to me. I remember those times that I never slept just to catch all of you online, to have fun, chat, be ourselves and never mind how time flies. Those were the days that I kept refreshering my old Nokia phone as I eagerly awaits all incoming messages. My apologies, I am one of those who abandoned my site. I keep on visiting but I never really stayed longer. Miss you bro. You know what?! I was planning to visit Japan for a 2-3 day stop (since I will be taking my vacation on July), unlucky me... The Visa process requires a lot. LOL. Maybe you can help me out?! Haha! Oh wait, my comments are going out of topic. Anyway, catch you online. Miss all of you here!

Kei - The Clown Masterkyosuke316 # Sunday, May 19, 2013 4:44:52 AM

Originally posted by tanira1:

you calling me hater *sigh* blue bear with tie.

Baka!!i never called you a hater....unless you really are?!

Kei - The Clown Masterkyosuke316 # Sunday, May 19, 2013 4:50:09 AM

Originally posted by saritasaralsingh:

Well all your real Opera friends are also struggling through and through I guess...that's y not able to say Hii Kyo!............but they ll remember u till the end,I promise,even your sister You drawing is fabulous all your friends once used to hang out here would come back either here or at ur home who knows! so keep ur place clean

Well whatever they are doing in this stage in their lives,i am cheering them all on to reach for their dreams and never let go.
thank you for the compliment.i don't really think my art is that good.i have much to improve upon.
Hahahaha!don't worry,my maid will keep the place clean.

Kei - The Clown Masterkyosuke316 # Sunday, May 19, 2013 4:51:03 AM

Originally posted by tanira1:

home? he is blue bear he lives in mountain somewhere in Russia

Baka!you know i can't go to Russia!i get deported in every country i step foot in.

Kei - The Clown Masterkyosuke316 # Sunday, May 19, 2013 4:55:04 AM

Originally posted by daneru:

Kyo-san!!! My brother! While reading your post... All those memories came back to me. I remember those times that I never slept just to catch all of you online, to have fun, chat, be ourselves and never mind how time flies. Those were the days that I kept refreshering my old Nokia phone as I eagerly awaits all incoming messages. My apologies, I am one of those who abandoned my site. I keep on visiting but I never really stayed longer. Miss you bro. You know what?! I was planning to visit Japan for a 2-3 day stop (since I will be taking my vacation on July), unlucky me... The Visa process requires a lot. LOL. Maybe you can help me out?! Haha! Oh wait, my comments are going out of topic. Anyway, catch you online. Miss all of you here!

Yes!!I was filled with the warming memories of the sleepless nights with you and the other friends drowning in laughter.

It was one of the best times to be here on this site for me.You all made coming here feel like a gift and every day was a very emotional rewarding experience.

so i am very grateful of you,brother Dan.thank you.

Waaaaa!that would be so cool if you come here.sure!i'll try to help out in any way that i can yo!!

i hope you enjoy your vacation brother.

bring me gifts

Mei The Clowntanira1 # Sunday, May 19, 2013 6:06:54 AM

Baka. i can get you in and yes i am a hater!