I'm Just Being..... Me!!!

i had this dream last night that got me thinking "do i belong here"? so i decided to write it down here.

in my dream life went on as normal.i was spending time with my girlfriend,practicing with my dance crew,and visiting my mother at the hospital.
so i was driving back home from dropping off Akemi at home when suddenly a car slammed into the front of the car.i was announced dead at the scene.a couple days after my death,i returned in a spirit form.everyone seemed so much better with me gone.i mean my breakdancing team became professionals,Akemi found a boyfriend that always make her happy and know all the right words to say that'll make her smile,and even my mother walked out the hospital 3 days after my death feeling like a brand new person.

in that dream everyone was so happy without me and so full of life.but in reality my life sucks.i mean from the beginning of this year it was like a curse was put upon me.
working constantly,broken my leg, my mother is very sick,and to make matters worse Akemi is very disappointed in me.

so the question is do i belong here?do Akemi deserves someone worth more than me? do my friends/breakdance team deserves a friend who's not an idiot?as i sit here typing this i'm smiling because i know i have the choice to make things in my life better which i'm making little progress everyday

thanks for taking the time for reading my post about my dream.

Kyosuke