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Controversy Creates...Comedy!?

Tuesday, November 30, 2010 10:45:12 AM

Interesting title ne?
I certainly think so.
You see,something happened awhile back that openned my eyes to the different meanings of "humour"
How do i put this....
ok,got it...
Boy meets girl
Boy befriends girl
a bond is formed
months pass through a fun filled friendship
bond grows stronger
others enter the kids lives
complication forms
boy and girl bond remains strong
mysterious figure appears
rumors spread
boy and girl separate by force
sides are chosen
boy's life falls apart
boy picks himself up and walk
boy and girl reunite once again....

Stupid?Mochiron!
But i'll give you a detailed version.

Above was just...lets say,one of my random moments that holds relevance.
With that said,let's proceed to what really happened...
Fyi...due to privacy issues,i won't use anyone's name other than my own.
On with the controversal humour.....

Kyou(that would be me)have this female friend whom he's very close to(oh no!! *gasp*)
She's a really cool person,funny and insane,so it was only natural that friendship was born between the two of us.
We would laugh and joke about silly things that wasn't very funny to the parties surrounding us and it managed to create some negative energy(wow!).Months passed and we were still laughing about the same crazy stuff and some may have viewed our chats on facebook as "flirting".I think a dictionary should be under the tree this year.
moving on...
We(kyou and the girl)continued on as usual,ignoring the glares and spears aimed at us.
Not so bad ne?!oh it always get worse.kyahaha!
Now get this,a few weeks ago,there are 7 days in a week,stay with me now....
Few weeks ago...Someone one took thier hatred for the bond the girl and i shared and totally flipped it upside down!
YOU MONSTER!!
The girl facebook account was hacked(i smell hatred/jealousy) and apparently,these ""letters""...
yes!i quoted that 4 times.
Letters got out and what do you know....Kyou and the girl are the entertainment of the evening.
Encore?NO!More like curtain call.
These ""letters"" were meant to pose kyou and the girl as a cheating couple,unfaithful to their partnars.boohoo!
Those ""letters"" were posted for the world to read(no there won't be a romantic novel following)

You think to yourself..."hahaha!there is no way anyone is stupid enough to believe the bullshit following through those ""letters"
Wait!
There were actually people dumb enough!Seriously,it makes one wonder,if the doctor slapped them on the ass and stupified them at birth?The world will never know,but...it was pretty stupid to believe the masked hero of injustice.
Shame on your brains!such weak intelluct.
Am i being a big meany?I'll discuss that later.
Anyways,So these ""letters"" came out and the dumbasses chose to side with the mysterious one and what about their friend of more than a year?Left to die,outcasted,deemed as the scum of opera,wait,all of cyber space,most of all,he was left untrusted.Ok!I get it!I wasn't all innocent in that mystery person's letter,so the idiots reacted as i expected.
Sure,the girl and i were an easy target because we had such a playful friendship that made it easy to attack/frame us.

Now that the letter thing is done,i feel the need to voice my feelings.
From the outside looking in,you can say it was no big deal,you'll move on,don't let this get you down,etc
But
At the end of the day,I was the one who carried all the blame!
I was the one who carried the burden!
I was the one suffering because of damage caused to my name!
Everyone seemed to have moved on so easily without a second look at the situation.
But lil ol me,i was still trying to find answers as to why i was targeted by some asshole who clearly had ill thoughts
brewing within the brain.
I wasn't even give a chance to voice my side.UNFAIR!!
The thing that kills me is...everyone questioned me,they actually thought i would write something like that,but you know,after i thought about it,i said why justify it if you already casted judgement on me?No point in talking.
It was all about everyone else's feelings,but no one actually took the time and consider how would kyou feel!
DID YOU!?NO!FUCK YOU!
I felt betrayed by everyone that had read those letters and called themselves my "friend" for you to even doubt me a little is like spitting on everything i've shown you throughout the years.i gave my everything to you all!
My "friends" actually thought kyou had something to do with that and it hurts.physically and mentally.
I gave so much of my life on this site within 2 years of being here.I dare you to find another user on this site who has put himself,the struggles,the flaws,the not so cute moments of their lives into everything they write!I DARE YOU!I purposely gave you all my true self,not just the stuff i thought was cool or fun in my life,i gave you the real Kyou.You see me for who i truly am.But some turned and actually put doubt in their tones when speaking my name and those letters in the same breath!I'M FUCKING HURT HERE!I don't ask for nothing,NOTHING from anyone here,but just a little respect,but you dishonored that wish when you chose to fault me!It makes me think that i'm nothing but comedy act here.I usually don't get upset here,i don't lash out,but i'm at a breaking point in my life where i can just call it quits and not show my face anywhere else!I can say forget opera,facebook,twitter,ym,msn,whereever i'm at,i'm at a point where i can walk away with no regrets.The lack of consideration makes me feel useless and i truly hate that feeling!I struggled for years to make people acknowledge me as a person,someone who feels,i'm not a robot,you can only do so much before i explode and guess what....the bomb went off and now i'm in a state beyond depression.
Do i display it when i talk here?Hell no!Why should i?You want to take and take from me until the bitter end and then bury me.
I sound so bitter in this damn post...it sucks.This isn't my usual tone when i write,but damnit!i'm over everything.I was betrayed,i was hurt,i was abandoned,but i had the strength to power on without help.
I'm used to being alone when dealing with a struggle,so why is this any different!?
I don't even feel like blogging anymore.
That's a wrap.My head feels like it's going to explode.

I'm going to let you make the call
Shinobu Kyousuke=Comedy act or friend?
You be the judge.
I'm done

Have a nice year's end

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