I'm Just Being..... Me!!!

Letter writing is a lost art some may say,but i guess we can all vouch for that.
Email is a thing that has totally erased the once exciting part of receiving a handwritten letter.
Sore ni
I just wanted to take the time to express myself to you
You've been a huge part of my life and i love you without end
Lets begin

Dear Someone
......
I don't actually know how to start...hehehe
Pardon my fiddling,but there's so much i want to tell and show you
But
You left without saying goodbye
Hey now!
Don't get all sad
It's not all bad....i guess

I had plans for us that day
Right after school
I'd get ice cream and we could enjoy the Toushi and Mashiro powershow hahahha
Would've been a yummy/insane hour and a half ne
But you disappear from me without a trace
I couldn't get to you nor could you hear my pleads for you
I couldn't go on,i wouldn't go on,but i moved on....i think
I was set free through the process of years of self torture to try to get back to you
Forever running into nowhere just to catch you
But i was actually running from reality
I didn't want to ever think i could live without your guidence
I didn't want to laugh and not have you tell me i would explode into tiny chunks of cookies
I didn't want to cry and not know tears made the face look artless
I didn't want to love another day without you showing me how to divide it amongst diffent people
But
I caught the will to get up and power through my storm and carry on
I made it

You may never be here with me anymore,but i Fight for you everyday
Release my soul to greet yours no matter the distance
Believe in the history that was once us
Forget the hurt you left when you went away.

It's like....everyday is a struggle to crave what you can never have ever
Emptiness is what i feel when i lie awake at night thinking of the alternative future

What if you were still here with me...
Would you laugh or cry at my currently development into this man i have become?
Would you think i'm a fool for my past mistakes as i transcended into adolescence?
Would you yell at me for sitting on my roof during rain storm to enjoy Earth has Heaven washes us?
Most of all
Would you be proud of the fact that i made it so far with just words alone?
I like to ponder such things,because i'm left unanwsered

Sometimes i look up to the sky and say..
"Hey You!!Do we look like ants from up there?"
I'm met with a breeze of wind as if the atmosphere was trying to give me your anwser
Winds huh?
Hahaha!You sure know how to keep a person's hair messy,yet,i imagine you placing your hand on my head and smiling like a big dummy doll.
Hahahaha!

Now

Memories are bittersweet you know
I love to remember you,but i just don't want to cry anymore,you know
I've dealt with loniless for years now and my heart is slowly but surely patching up with the fabrics of new souls that have met mine
No doubt that's what you've wanted,but.....sigh....you are still missing in my quilt of souls
To go without a trace but you will never be replaced
Life gave me the strawberry and you took the apple
Kyahahahahahahahhaha

a Humor unrivaled
a life undenible
The future slept away
As the past began to decay

Time wasn't on your side
But you dare not shy
Into fear of the end
You'd just smile and start over again

Death comes in with the breeze
Playing with life as it tease
The chapter to unfold
But your story is forever told

Links in the heart
Of never being apart
Shooting them to the sky so blue
We have paid our dues

Awarded the key of destiny
What's left for me
One thing to do
And that's to forever love you


"This isn't farewell,just see you later.
Don't cry.The angels will lose your perfect melody.
I'll tell you what,
Look above,you see the great blue wonder known as the sky
Magnificent isn't it,eh Takuya-chan?
Whenever i'm away from home and you feel like missing me,
Just turn your head to the heavens
And i will send a smile only for my Takuya-chan,
So he may share his with the people of Japan and the world.
Deal?
Love you."

Hahahahaha!
you're still in my red beating thing
See you later....my dear someone

Forgive my long post.
Just had this urge to write
Odaji ni
Baibai