I have for the last year or so been trying to think why i can't bring myself to blog here or stay more than 10 minutes.
Was it a result of boredom or just simply a lack of time?It's neither
The fact is....I felt so alone here for a year and when i log in,there is an emptiness i feel inside my heart.
I come here and thinking my notifications would be overloaded as previous and i'll be coming on to all my crazy friends.Soon i find it's a hollow wasteland and all that remains is the hollow shells and memories of my dear friends.
It's like the apocalypse is evident and no future traces are present.
Wondering along this place looking for any surviving members of my old clan is just a painful failed search attempt.
Due to the ever so evident truth that i am now an audience of one,i became withdrawn from this site.
Here i am today,still longing for the days i can come here during all hours of the day and be greeted to my little family and their on going crazy conversations that i could easily jump into.
A harmony disrupted by none and a happiness achieved through full honest friendship.
Backgrounds,sexual orientation,religion,age,gender...none of that matter.
We span from all over the world.Japan,Vietnam,Ireland,Indonesia,England,United States,Hawaii,etc...
Our bonds exceeded acrossed the oceans and we made the best of each day.
The bullshit of a term "cyber friend"didn't cross our minds when we were with each other
We talked as if we knew each other since grade school!
We joked about each other,we shared our stories,gave advice to those needed,we fought,we cried,and the best part,everything was age appropriate so any one could join in and just have fun,be it reading or actually taking part.
I remember my blog titled "friendship" there,was the true example of our closeness and bonds.
We all exploded on that on that one post and had the opera gathering of the century!!
I can still go back and look at it and laugh as if the words were freshly planted there again.
I still feel their spirits and i will always forever cherish each and everyone of them.
The funny thing is,i even was told to promise to never leave this site(yes,you know who you are) ,therefore i promised to never leave,but she left this place and never returned!!
I do miss you my dear little sister.
Now that i am here again,knowing very well that a chapter of my life here has ended,but i won't dishonour that promise.May this blog go unread or whatever,i will write because this is my home and i grew from this place alone.
I am indeed an audience of one,but i never closed my seats off for more viewers to join me in this show.
If you ever want to befriend Kyo,i will treat you like a friend,not an online person,i won't disrespect your existence by calling you only digital elements.I will cherish your soul or i will hate your soul as real as anyone that intrigues me or angers me.
I appreciate all my current friends and i respect you all as my real friends.
My emotions are raw and i may be foolish for extending such emotions,but i don't know how to be fake.
P.S,I decided to post a drawing i did of myself with a black back drop.It's a symbol of kyo being all alone.boo hoo. -_-
Thank you all for reading
Until next time