I'm Just Being..... Me!!!

Here we are once again!
Yet another post.

The Okii question surrounding me now is
"Why is Kyousuke leaving from the net?"

Ja,
there is no simple explanation as to why i must leave.
It's a personal decision i chose in order to better myself.

Truth be told,
while i was bathing yesterday,
i thought to myself.
"why am i leaving?"
i fell asleep while bathing.
Soon as i awoke from my sleep,
memories of the past really haunted me.
As you can see by now,
i used the word "haunted".

It's the best type of word to describe these memories.
These past years hasn't been pleasant for me!
I mean....
Lost my Otousan,
Had a near-death experience,
Considered suicide on countless occasions,and
not to mention,me trying to cut all ties to my family!

I have become a man with lots of regrets,pains of the past,and self-pity.
and,
that has turned my life upside down!

So,
I've decided and i talked with my family and gf
and,
they all agreed that it is best for me to take a break from everything.
I need to get these regrets out of my heart and i need to take my rightful place again as Shinobu Kyousuke.
Right now,that name is tarnished with the regrets and sorrows of the years.
i'm starting anew and i will become a better person in life.

You know,
I have grown accustom to this feeling of regret,pain,sorrow,and loneliness
and yet,
I don't want is this feeling anymore.
The time for crying has long passed
so,
now is the time for action!

Don't think of me in a different way
and,
don't worry about me.
i'll be genki yo!

So,
it's decided!
Mid-January,
i'll be setting off on a soul changing journey to become Shinobu Kyousuke once more.
Just like old times.

Well,
This is my reason for leaving.
I hope you all understand now.

Til next post,
Ja mata

P.S. I'll be also working really hard with work and my own project
during my time of absence.

Kyo