Son of Mars

I want to see how big the world is ! That what i said to my old managers when i refused their offer. As a young guy, who's just graduate, it's a common desire. They already knew and understood my reason, because they had some experiences before. So, i quited off, left behind many friends there who had worked together for six months. Now, i have my own big world, this was my only one choice at that time, even i had many other choices that promise more big damn things. Until now, i got some and lost some too and i understand that there are some kinds of big world and its characteristics depend on what kind of employee this world prefers. So that, each kind of world is suitable for one kind of human, and it's obvious their employee kind decides their "big" trend. Depth, width, or height ?? In other words, I might say I have been in a world that its "big" trend is width. So the problem here is "Am I their human kind?". In fact, when i joined here, at the beginning, my desire was not different from others dream, expect income benefit would come quickly because of its "big" trend. Some days before, i got two quick little chats, one with a foreigner guy, one with an old friend. My old friend said like i said before with my old managers above and this foreigner guy showed me a new kind of big trend. Though it's not quite new to me, it woke me up from an ambiguous dream of desire. These events make me once again think about my suitability. Should i think twice ?????