Son of Mars

Yesterday is a day of thinking and deciding. It was begun with a funny creative romantic idea while I ridded my bike to the zoo at morning and thought of the girl who I always think of some recent days. Though it’s a beautiful beginning, after the heavy rain on evening, everything was rotated 180*. Because of heavy rain, I couldn’t join in my meeting and share my ideas about an important decision. I know this is a big and necessary step but I really don’t want it come too soon, there are too many things we have to do before this step. Ok, it’s a decision and I have to respect it, hope that’s good.

My astrology of this week’s completely right on this Thursday, it said that I have to be aware with something seem to be good, brilliant or beautiful. If someone or something is perfect, please double check his or her or it again. After my check, I saw the truth, it’s incomplete, and neither clear enough, but it’s the important glue. Unfortunately, it makes me really upset. I don’t know why I’m too upset when writing this entry. Maybe I hoped too much, believed in something isn’t real, something belongs to my heart not my mind. After the heavy rain, everything’s cleared enough to think, to be upset.

What a discourage beginning of the day, but my learned lesson is how to respect a decision though it’s hurt and you really don’t like it

P/S: I hope someone understands it, paragraph by paragraph. Maybe u understand the upper one or the lower one or both of them. However, try to do me a favor, please do not leave any your comments about this entry. When it's out of my mind, i wanna throw it away and don't wanna see it again. Thank