my small corner
Monday, 3. August 2009, 10:04:30
I have been home with my family for 1 and a half day – just a short time, yet I appreciated it so much. This summer, I am too busy with part-time jobs and study to stay long with them. Although I know that they are sad, I cannot ignore all of the opportunities to live in my parents’ arms. This is only my first steps and challenges; I do not want to miss it really. My parents seem to understand my state, so they do not require me anything but keep healthy and work hard. How wonderful they are!
However, I am sad as well. Poor my dears! They only have me – the only child. I feel ashamed that I cannot live beside them always to take care of them, to delight them. I feel as if I was burdened with mixed emotions and responsibilities right now. Sometimes, I consider between career and family; nonetheless, never can I find the answer to this tough question. I love my family so much and I love to develop my career at the same time. Neither of those things do I want to miss. Neither! None! This feeling knocks me down at times; even though I decided not to think about it much. Shame on me! Shame on my weakness!
I am on my summer vacation, but I haven’t been to anywhere to relax yet. I thought that it was embarrassed to ask my parents’ money for traveling, so I worked part-time to mange funds for my interest. I can earn enough to satisfy myself now; still, I want to spend it on my family’s sake. I want to buy new things for my parents. I want to delight them. That is the reason why I haven’t had my own vacation since then. Anyway, it somehow makes me happy as I have done something good for my dearest persons.
I am going to get started with a new school year, which will overwhelm me with research and tests usually. I don’t know if I can continue working as I am doing now – it depends mostly on my time management skills and health (and the ability to be under pressure as well). I have to review my designing skills also because I will be involved in it a lot. I am bad at designing now – oh my poor creativeness!! Finally, just do it! Try my best, and I will be what I wanna be!
However, I am sad as well. Poor my dears! They only have me – the only child. I feel ashamed that I cannot live beside them always to take care of them, to delight them. I feel as if I was burdened with mixed emotions and responsibilities right now. Sometimes, I consider between career and family; nonetheless, never can I find the answer to this tough question. I love my family so much and I love to develop my career at the same time. Neither of those things do I want to miss. Neither! None! This feeling knocks me down at times; even though I decided not to think about it much. Shame on me! Shame on my weakness!
I am on my summer vacation, but I haven’t been to anywhere to relax yet. I thought that it was embarrassed to ask my parents’ money for traveling, so I worked part-time to mange funds for my interest. I can earn enough to satisfy myself now; still, I want to spend it on my family’s sake. I want to buy new things for my parents. I want to delight them. That is the reason why I haven’t had my own vacation since then. Anyway, it somehow makes me happy as I have done something good for my dearest persons.
I am going to get started with a new school year, which will overwhelm me with research and tests usually. I don’t know if I can continue working as I am doing now – it depends mostly on my time management skills and health (and the ability to be under pressure as well). I have to review my designing skills also because I will be involved in it a lot. I am bad at designing now – oh my poor creativeness!! Finally, just do it! Try my best, and I will be what I wanna be!
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WIDGETIZE